"ETERNITY"

 

          EACH OF US EXPERIENCEE THE INSIDE AND OUTSIDE OF OUR LIVES ON  A DAILY BASIS.  ON THE OUTSIDE WE ARM OURSELVES IN ORDER TO PROTECT OUR INTERNAL LIFE, OUR INTIMACY, OUR LOVED ONES, AND OUR PERSONAL BELIEFS.  WE HAVE ONE FACE WE SHARE WITH THE WORLD, WHILE WATCHFUL THAT NOTHING PENETRAES THE SANCTITY OF OUR INTERNAL PEACE......FROM THE INSIDE WE HAVE ALL THE WINDOWS TO THE WORLD, BUT WE ONLY OPEN THEM TO THE ONES WE TRUST......IN ETERNITY WE LIVE PEACEFULLY ENCOMPASSED BY GOD'S LOVE......  AND THE LOVE OF OUR EARTHLY FAMILY.  I LOVE ALL MY FAMILY MORE THAN WORDS  CAN TELL AND I THINK THEY LOVE ME BACK......EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES I WONDER......BUT ALL YOU CAN DO IS KEEP TRYING.
         A VERY QUIET DAY BUT LOOKING FOREWARD TO DINNER WITH MY NEPHEW MIKE AND HIS WIFE ANDREA,. CAN'T BELIEVE WE ARE AT THE END OF FEBRUARY TODAY........AND TIME TO MAKE OUT THE BILLS AGAIN.

A DAMMIT DOLL.........

             YES, I believe things keep happening in your life that keeps pushing you on and higher to succeed......and assist you to higher goals.  Got my nails done today, then wandered down to Z Galleria to check out all their wonderful treasures for your home and get some ideas for my place.......I could get lost in a places like that......then on to Carter's baby clothes, so many darling things for little boys now days, then on to the Paper Store next door and found a treasure that made my day........called a DAMMIT DOLL.  Now days I found I have  quit a few of those days.......The little saying printed on the front says....."Whenever things don't go so well.......and you want to hit the wall and yell.....Here's a little Dammit Doll......That you can't do without......Just grab it firmly by the legs......and find a place to slam it.......and as you whack the stuffing out.....yell "Dammit, Dammit, Dammit!".........now to find a name for him before he gets destroyed.
             Got my nails done, and checked out the progress on my new house.....so anxious. Sher called they are good and busy and Alex celebrated his 22nd birthday yesterday......Karrie is still not communicating......but oh well.  Pam and Rob had a big dinner of some kind tonight and Mike called and invited me to dinner tomorrow night before they go down to listen to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.......and another weekend it upon us...........and life goes on.

OLD AGE......

Yes......there is no doubt I have hit old age.......this cold weather makes every part of me hurt!  And yes, my eyes aren't as good as they were......my hair is getting thinner, I have shrunk 2".....no longer 5' 4"........I have flabby arms and weird things grow all over me!  One big blessing is my mind is ok.......and I have so many wonderful memories as this old lady so nicely puts it......"The reason I know my youth has been spent.......is my get-up-and-go-has-got-up-and-went! But I really don't mind I think with a grin, of all the fun place my get-up has been!".........My teen years were spent trying to be miss wonderful.....on to college and then a stewardess....on to a wife and mother and grandmother and now even a great-grand mother......Been around the world to so many wonderful places and met so many nice people......always my goal was to be better and do better and I was blessed with good health. I do hope eventually my family all settle down and like each other again and I get moved into my own home again....But when you think of the options of being old or not......I'll take old.

Everyone is talking about "50 Shades of Grey".....should we see it or shouldn't we?  Read the first book and wasn't impressed......then there is the question.....which came first?........  The chicken or the egg....... Well this cartoon settled it for me......have a nice day.

UBUNTU...............

A man told a group of children of an African Tribe......I will put a basket of fruit under the tree and the one that runs the fastest gets the basket of fruit to eat himself.......Then he told them to get ready........ and then go.  The group of children grabbed hands and ran to the tree where they shared the fruit.  When they were asked ......".why didn't just one of you run to the tree and enjoy the fruit all by yourself?"  He was told Ubuntu.

Ubuntu translate to "how can one of us be happy when all the others are sad?"  It can also be summed up as ....."I am because....... we are."  This seems to be the attitude that GOD is trying to teach us......remember UBUNTU.

           Another day of hanging out with the bridge club......and I won!  The catch up news is important every month......Mae just got back from Peru, Nancy became a great-grandma for the first time, Kay substituted for Betty Barlow who had another appointment and I caught them up on the progress of my new house......can't wait until next month for the next chapter.

COURAGE.........

It was one of those days......long and boring!  It's terrible when all you have to do all day is to make your bed and eat three meals......trouble is, there have too many of them these past few months.  When you are in someone else's home you don't just take over.....I have found each one of the girls have their own ways of doing things and prefer doing them their selves.....soooo I just hang out and do nothing, which is getting very depressing.  I did knit three Christmas stockings for the new family members.  But I will try again tomorrow to think of something I need to do like my taxes.....So many of my friends are piled with troubles....so mine are not so bad.  Very cold, but no snow.

LIFE IS LIKE A CAMERA......

This little saying really seems to ring true in our lives.  I am trying to focus on what is important in my life in my old age.....like my family and health.  I have captured my good times in pictures, journals and stored away in my memory and I have had many good times in my life.  Some people never learn from the negatives in their lives......they marrying the same kind of losers several times.....they go through drug  rehab over and over or return to prison several times......Hope fully I learned from my bad decisions and only had my heart broken once, stayed away from drugs and booze etc......and yet some people jump back into marriage more than once and feel they need to take another shot at it.....gamblers and some investors believe in taking another shot at things. So I guess bottom line is get out that camera......or phone ......or IPAD and start recording your life.

Saw a great movie today "USA McFarland"......Shirley and I cried all the way through.....not sad tears but good tears.  Dinner at Izzy's......not good.  Going to watch the Oscars now!

WHERE AM I?

Saturday......a catching up day.  Pam and I went and had Mexican Food for lunch and then off to hit the sales at Macy's.  Picked up a couple of bargains and off to Target to finish up a few things.   It is cold and windy but not like winter at all.  Rob in Idaho so just hanging out.

I have always felt....you are where you are in life because of the choices you made!!! And of course influenced by the choices of your parents ....like religion..... where and how you were raised.......habits and ideas.  I have been worried so much about my life right now and regretting my choice to move, sell the condo, live with my kids and wait for a new place that I have to pay for connecting everything, buy window coverings, washer and dryer, change my mail address and many etcs.......And then I know in my heart God is in charge of my life and always has been......that God has placed me where I am at this moment for a reason..... Even though I do not know the reason right now.....sometime I will.......I just need to trust he is working everything out for the best in my life. Why do we always make things harder instead of having faith an letting God do it?

GOOD FRIENDS.........

Bridge day at Jane's........I love these days not because I love bridge......but because I love the girls I have known for so long.  Once a month we catch up on every one's latest doings, their kids, their health, their travels. Friends come in all sizes, ages and colors.........I don't have any yellow ones with strange eyes......but I do have tall, short, fat, skinny , old, young etc......and that is what makes life so interesting.  Wouldn't life be awful without friends?  There is one very important ingredient though.....you have to be a friend to have a friend and that seems hard for some people to understand.  After my divorce I found out who were my real friends and wrote a poem about it.....called THANK YOU GOD FOR FRIENDS......it ends with the lines......And I know that at the Rainbows end, I won't find a pot of gold, but you my friend!  So thank you God for my friends.

JUST A SMILE.......

After reading this little saying......it really made me stop and think.....YES.....when someone smiles at me for no reason ......I always feel better.....so I decided to try it.  I went to the Mall to get my nails done and after wards stopped at the Panda Express for a Teriaki rice bowl.  I settled in the middle of the food court and pledge to smile at every single person who passed my table....well I didn't keep score but I would say 6 or 7  out of 10 people I smiled at smiled back......maybe not the parents but the children shyly smiled back.  Here I was thinking I was maybe making some one's day a little better.....when I finally realized how many people made my day better.  Try it next time you go shopping or out to eat.  Remember a smile doesn't cost anything .....and may change someone's day for the better.  A smile can't be bought, begged, borrowed or stolen.....my oldest daughter would not smile for a photo no matter how much we begged, bribed or threaten....she is better now.....be a person who generously give their smiles.....if it helps someone, good.....be assured it will help you!

Pretty quiet day.....did a few chores, knitting up a storm and enjoying spring in February......still haven't sold the condo!

PRESIDENTS DAY.......

        Love this picture of Robbie and his grandson taking a nap.....not sure who is tending who?????  They both look very happy......I don't even remember one of my grandchildren ever  being held and loved by their grandpa Don.....I feel sad for them, but more sad for him for what he missed in bonding with them.....he doesn't even know who is who when they are all together.  Aaron will love this grandpa forever and look up to him as a teacher.
        Today is Presidents Day.....a holiday for some.....but not everyone.  Cleaned house this morning and took in a movie this after noon.....a pretty quiet weekend without the Panniers.  No message from my missionary......guess no news is good news.

WONDER WOMAN........

Enjoying my long weekend and the weather is the greatest!  Shirley and I were off to a movie and dinner then stopped by my Condo....RICH was having open house and good new that a couple of people were interested in it....I am really keeping my fingers crossed and saying a little prayer something will happen soon. 

I never realized it until today but I am a............." WONDER WOMAN"! and I bet most my friends are too.  My list of things I wonder about is about twice as long as the one above?  Heck, I wonder about my health, my age, my family, if my car is ok, if my house will sell soon and I will get what I want for it and when I will be moving!!!!  I never really wondered why I wondered.......it just comes naturally.   I do kinda like the title though.......and it could be a little misleading.......

I REALLY NEED A DAY BETWEEN SATURDAY AND SUNDAY!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY......

HAPPY  VALENTINE'S DAY........a very quiet day here.  How come it's no fun when your loved ones are not around.   Just another day.....one year ago today the family got together and we moved the Panniers into their new home......in which I am staying now......as I wait for my new home to be finished. First day of open house at the condo.......some lookers but no takers.  I will stay positive and keep praying.

I guess the best advice is to tune  into your body.......Feel and listen to your vibrations!  The rhythm of the body, the melody of the md, the harmony of the soul.......these create the symphony of life.

Honor, love, respect, accept and bless yourself because this is the highest form of love and gratitude to the universe.

Cute Valentine from Nicci's General Mills company.

SMELL THE ROSES......

I have a buddy in the same boat........can't wake up and smell the roses........because there won't be any........but I was married 30 years and there never were flowers for anything so I got use too it!  However, I do have a couple of son-in-laws that surprise me now and then.......but this year......maybe not.  I did come home to a beautiful pink flowered plant from my room mates who are off to IDAHO for the 3 day holiday.  I am very happy to spend a nice quiet weekend alone.....will take in a couple of movies and maybe coffee with Patty.  I do hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's Day.......my best memories of the day was trying to make a shoe box look like some great work of art when the girls were told to bring a decorated box to put their valentines in......and making out lists of who they were giving them to each year......oh yes, happy days.  And if they got one that said love on it from a boy.....oh wow!  Happy Valentines Days family........didn't send Valentines this year.......well one to my missionary!

HOUSE ON THE MARKET!

I am so happy and need to start praying that my house will sell soon......we just listed it and put it on the market today.....the Cooks and Panniers have spent all week adding the finishing touches and pulling it together.........Christenson's workers got it in motion.....the kids have all been fantastic!  Richard will have some open houses this long Presidents weekend......cross your fingers for me.  Panniers and Tiffs little family are off to the cabin in Idaho tomorrow for the long weekend.   I was invited but there is snow and cold up there and I am enjoying our beautiful winter with no snow.  I am in the middle of knitting three Christmas stockings I want to finish and see a couple of movies.....so will keep busy this weekend. It seems if you really try .....you can find so many things to do each day.......For instance.......make yourself and someone else smile.  Today you can decide to stress less and dream more.......Today you can focus on what really matters to you.  Today you can decide to make a great choice......... the choice to be happy.

TUESDAY.......

What can I say she always gets it right!  The weekend isn't always that hot either!!!!

I am trying, I really am but it seems that day after day is just the same.......I  usually end up not even knowing what day it is...... Maybe tomorrow they will finish up my house....MAYBE.....I keep hearing that!  The kids fired Darren's help from Vernal who was just costing us money and decided to do it themselves.   Karrie and Richie spent today calking cracks, Pam will go over tomorrow and repaint a lot of the things, and a man is coming to restretch the carpet.....they let me do very little!!!!  I can run pick up things they need. I say to all my friends......don't move.....EVER!  I called my cousin, Lucille and planned to unload and complain to her....but she started on her list of complaints and they were longer than mine and I guess I'll have to call her tomorrow and try and get my list listened to!.....she took up all the time......I reminded her of a sign I saw....."Remember, as far as anyone knows we have a perfectly normal family"......Yea like everyone else has!  HA

.PUT THE ELDERLY IN PRISION.......

Some days I just want to run away from it all and I think Maxine has the solution!

I think the person who suggested the following has a very good idea......We should put the elderly in prison because they will get a shower every day, video surveillance in case of problems, three meals a day, access to a library, computer, TV. gym, doctors on site and free  medication if needed!  AND

Put criminals in nursing homes and they will get......cold meals, lights off at 7:00 pm, two showers a week, live in a smaller room and pay rent at $4.000.00 a month!   It's pretty sad we treat our criminals better than we do our elderly.  Kinda makes  you stop and think.......of course in days gone by .......the Indians would just go off and leave their elderly to die alone when they couldn't keep up......that's not a good idea to me.

Shirley and I went to see "Black and White".....quite an interesting movie.   Off to the Spaghetti Factory with the Panniers tonight. Quiet weekend.

WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT?

 "THOSE WHO WALK WITH GOD ALWAYS KNOW THEIR FINAL DESTINATION:".........

"When you are in the final days of your life, what will you want?  Will you hug that college degree in the walnut frame?  Will you ask to be carried to the garage so you can sit in your fancy car?  Will you find comfort  rereading your financial statements?  Of course not......  What will matter then will be people.  If relationships will matter most then.....shouldn't they matter now?"

Off to a movie and lunch with Shirley and it seemed her next door neighbor had plans for she and I to go with her to the Spaghetti Factory with her for dinner.......tonight.......Just presuming we would agree with her plan.......Shirley caved, but I said I had to come home and let my dog out! Seems neighbors can get a little to neighborly!!!!  Panniers home tomorrow night and back to working on my house the first of the week.  Did laundry and my hair today.....tired tonight.

TGIF........

THIS IS AN ESPECIALLY HAPPY WEEKEND.......I JUST GOT NEWS I WILL PROBABLY BE MOVING INTO MY OWN HOME IN MARCH.....MY  OLD HOUSE IS ABOUT A WEEK AWAY FROM THE MARKET AND I HAVE MY FINGERS CROSSED MINE SELLS FAST.......AND FOR WHAT I WANT FOR IT!!!!! YES, I AM PUTTING MY FAITH IN GOD.  THE PANNIERS WENT OFF TO THE BARN THIS WEEKEND IN THEIR NEW CAR.......AND IT IS REALLY QUIET HERE TONIGHT WITH JUST GIG..........I

THANKFUL FOR SISTERS.......

I am very lucky......I had three sisters growing up and so many fun memories over the years......my littlest sister Leslie and I shared a room.  I was 11 when she was born.....the perfect age for baby sitting and I did.  As I grew up it was more big sister......little sister and not a lot in common.....I do remember how nice it was to come home from a date in the cold of winter and push her over and take her warm spot in bed.....I don't remember her ever complaining? As we grew into adults with families we started having more in common and  have had many wonderful trips around the world together.  I was worried about her ankle operation today and glad to see her report on facebook all went well.....will check on her tomorrow.   Happy it's over Les an love ya!

 

GREAT NEWS;;;;;;;

It has been since last October that the idea of me moving out of my condo came up!!!!!  I gave in and have struggled with it since......BUT today a little good news.  An email that carpet will be laid in the house on the 11th of March and a walk through on the 18th.....so maybe I will get moved in....... in March!!!!  Now if we can just get my house finished and sold??????

As the days draw closer to my 83rd birthday.....I am older and slowly accepting the color purple.........BUT face it!

Shades of purple bring on interesting changes in your life......

I cannot see......I cannot pee.......I cannot chew.....I cannot screw.....Oh my goodness, what can I do?  My memory shrinks, my hearing stinks.......No sense of smell, I look like Hell.........My bodies drooping, I have trouble pooping......The golden years are here at last.....And I must say, they can kiss my A......PAST!

Can life get any better?

YOUR CHARACTER......

I know I didn't become the person I am today over night!!!!! And I know I am not known as a "sweet little old lady".....I doubt anyone ever used the adjective sweet in describing me?  Character and wisdom are sculptured over time......They come with loss, lessons and triumphs........They come after doubts, second guessing and unknowns.......If there were a definite path to success everyone would be on it....... The seeds of your success are planted in your past failures......Your best stories will come from over coming your greatest struggles...... Your praises will be birthed from your pains......So keep standing , keep learning and keep living!

There are some things money just cannot buy.....Like manners, morals and integrity.

Nice day in Salt Lake......catch up time with Patty and Ruth at coffee.......lazy day.

BAD THINGS FOR YOU.........

Maybe I have discovered the reason I am a mess........I drink coffee every day......I eat many things that are fat.......I love sugar.......and I worry constantly!!!!......about everything that has not even happened yet......When will the house be on the market.....will we make enough to pay for my new house and Darren get his money back....will I ever gather all my stuff up again from the kids and storage.....and what kind of shape will it be in when we move it back into the new place.......Change your address for mail......notify the bank, stock broker, lawyer,  income tax man, doctors, dentist, eye doctor, dermatologist, etc........and let all your friends know you have a new phone number......so you can keep up with your social life.  Give me a few more minutes and I'll think of some other good things to worry about!!!!.......seems the hours between 2:00 am and 5:00 seem to be a time I do my best worrying.......through the day I am just stressed.

It is another beautiful day here high 50's......we have not had winter yet!..I know the ground-hog saw his shadow yesterday and we are in for another 6 weeks of winter.... BUT......we are still waiting for winter to get here........

OH NO............

Why do we need signs to help us be convinced of the things we should know?........I know I can do what I decide to do and I know my family loves me as they are proving it every day.....but I keep feeling it is my fault that their lives have all been disrupted because of me and I don't like it!.....even though it was their idea that I make a huge change in my life.....went by the house today to get my mail and Darren had four people from VERNAL working on my house.   Donna and Dannell ( his son's mother-in-law).......were there to clean the house and Dave and Juan putting in door etc.......hopefully done in a few days......I took over drinks and snacks......they won't let me do anything!!!!!!  It was a beautiful day here....at 5;00 it was 55 degrees.  Long talk with Nadine Lyngle in St. George.....always fun to catch up with old friends.   Mailed bills.....paid condo fee.....and did chores all mornig

TELL ME THAT ONE MORE TIME!!!!!!!!!!

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