SIXETY YEARS AGO TODAY.......

 

WELL.......SIXETY YEARS AGO TODAY MY FATHER WALKED ME DOWN THE ISLE IN A SMALL WHITE MEDTHODIST CHURCH IN MANCOS, COLORADO........THE ONLY ONE OF HIS FOUR DAUGHTERS HE GOT TO WALK DOWN THE ISLE!!!!!

SIXETY YEARS LATER FROM TODAY I WAS MARRIED A LITTLE OVER 30 YEARS.......... AND NOW I HAVE BEEN SINGLE FOR 30 YEARS!!!!

THAT'S LIFE.........

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BETTY REE...........

BACK TO THE OLD ROUTINE!!!!!

 

THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME......IS A GOOD THOUGHT......but maybe if you are hanging out with your sister and her family and a few other relatives that really like you.......it makes you question if there might be some place happier than home at this time in your old age.  I do hear from Sherrie every day but she is 300 miles away.  Several of my kids and grandkids live within 10 minutes of me.....but I may go weeks without seeing or hearing from anyone......Maybe I have it all wrong and I expect to much.    Sherrie and Darren flew down to Mesquite yesterday and brought me home after all most 3 weeks helping my sister.  I am on my third batch of laundry and did get unpacked but tired and not moving to fast.  I have a doctor appointment in the morning to look at my legs which keep bleeding.....and I do need milk, bread and eggs.....so off to shopping tomorrow.

It is cold and looks like rain.....I guess Vernal and Mesquite both have bad weather so I am glad we came home yesterday when we had good weather everywhere.....  it was a delightful trip home with Darren at the controls....I thought I would be very nervous, but I would do it again.......GIGI seems happy to be back to her own little bed and is really a good little flyer......guess she inherited it from her family of flyers!

POEM OF THE DAY........

 

"WE ARE OLD......BUT WE ARE NOT DEAD!  PLEASE DO NOT TREAT US LIKE WE ARE!"

A reminder to all grandchildren......some of mine really fit this little story.....for many years I was in the middle of everything my 9 grandkids did.....baby siting, picking up and dropping off, sewing costumes, or fluffy dresses for the girls, going to school for grandparents day, Halloween parades or when they had programs......baseball, football, and cheerleading, piano recitals, dance reviews , birthday parties.....sleep overs.....Oh my the list could go on forever BUT it seems they have outgrown grandma now.....the only advice I can give these people is:....what goes 'goes round.....comes 'round.......when you are old????

 

I am your grandmother......

Do not treat me like an old woman as in my heart I am not.......

Instead of spending money on me, spend time with me.....A penny of it is worth more than a dollar from your wallet.

Tell me you love me......but show me as well.

Talk to me......not at me.

Make me a part of your world as you are one of the most important parts of mine!

If I repeat the same story twice......please do not tell me as I know my mind is not what it once was but reminding me only makes me feel old......

I may talk about people you never knew.....but I did and I loved them and miss them and sometimes talking about them makes them come alive for me.....if but for a moment.

 

 

 

 

 

REALIZE WHAT YOU ALREADY HAVE.......

 

Time to pack up and head back home......not really ready to go, but when you can get a ride you need to be thankful and work with their schedules......Sherrie and Darren are flying in today after church and will fly me back to Vernal, then drive me back to Salt Lake in a day or two......and they have my dog......not too excited about getting back to the loneliness etc......growing old alone is not good.

Pam did her Pam thing again and came down on Sherrie about my dog and having to change her schedule so she could pick me up in a week.....Sherrie called crying should we come or not?  I give up with my girls......they don't just come by and sit and visit because they want to see me......it's always a have to thing.  I have enjoyed Kristi's family in and out and they do everything for Leslie because they want to.......I am ready to sell my house and move to Mesquite!!!!!

HAPPY SUNDAY???

GHOSTING........

 I quietly slipped out of Salt Lake City  about three weeks ago.....I only told several people that I was going and would be gone a month.  I read an article called "GHOSTING".......where people just slipped away without a goodbye or anyone knowing for sure where they had disappeared to......I realized that is what I had more or less done.  I was very depressed and bored and lonely and feeling sorry for myself and just wanted to get away.......no friends, neighbors, dog etc......a change.  I have been use to traveling in my life and had breaks away......which always made home and your own bed welcome to get back to......those days are over for me and I must realize it and adjust I guess.....I have really enjoyed a new state, a fun visit with my side of the family and never a dull moment with my sister....Yesterday we went to see "THE HUNTSMAN" .......then her kids came for dinner......today we are off to see "THE BOSS" and have been getting dinner ready for the kids again tonight.  Duke going with us.   My kids my fly in tomorrow to take me home.....depends on what the weather does this weekend.

Leslie baked a pineapple upside down cake and made tacos......I made bacon bark....fun but think I like the chocolate cracker bark the best that I made the other day........

"AT ANY MOMENT YOU HAVE THE POWER TO SAY......"THIS IS NOT HOW THE STORY IS GOING TO END!"

CATCHING UP.......

 

Birthday party Sunday.....Monday just hanging out with the kids in and out all day......Tuesday MY BIRTHDAY...but sick and spent the day in bed.  Wednesday drove Leslie  to St. George to her doctor's appointment.  Her leg is doing great and she can get rid of the scooter Friday.  We went to a movie and to lunch after the doctor appointment and back in Mesquite she went and lined up six weeks of physical therapy......rested an hour and went to watch Brayley play baseball.  She dove for a ball an pulled some muscles in her knee.  Today she is hobbling but walking on it.  Tami and Kevin popped in for a few hours.  Kristi and family over and planning on going to the Virgin Cassino for dinner.  Sherrie called and she and Darren will fly in Sunday after church.......with Gigi no less......stay at the Virgin and then fly me home Monday morning.  Have had a great time and will miss all the excitement of Leslie's house!!!!!

I TURNED 84!!!!!

 

So happy to enjoy another birthday even though I spent it in bed with stomach cramps........oh well...... I am still alive and kicking.  I am spending my birthday month in Nevada with my sister.  I did get in a birthday party two days  earlier with the relatives in this area  and the Christensons sent flowers.....plus many Birthday wishes on face book.

       I have come a long ways from this picture when I was five with my little sister Joan.......lots of ups and down as every life is......always a new test or challenge to handle......and I am still doing it and thank God every day for my many blessings.  I hope I have a few more years......but I know that is in GOD'S hands.

 

"WE ARE NOT GIVEN A GOOD LIFE OR A BAD LIFE.....WE ARE GIVEN A LIFE.  IT IS UP TO US TO MAKE IT GOOD OR BAD."

BIG BIRTHDAY PARTY......

 

Well tomorrow will mark 84 years of my great journey in life......one step at a time and one day at a time.  Yesterday we had a family party and celebrated my birthday......cake and all.  Being away from home and down in Mesquite with Leslie we got all her family together.......My late sister Joan's daughter Tammie was there and my other late sister Dixie's daughter Korina and son Matt surprised us and came.  Kristi and three of her children were there and her husband Phillip who cooked for us............Mike's daughter Chelsey and 2 children and Kenvin's daughter and husband, Also Leslie's son Dukane.  Nice big group and many I hadn't seen for quite awhile..

Sherrie called and I may have Brayden and Ken with me......Great!

A BIG THANK YOU.......

 

What a lazy day......just rested up from our busy yesterday.......No kids in and out today so we just hung out.  I know Sherrie was having a big baptism and brunch for a new member Darren was baptizing.  I guess Pam and Rob just hung out tending dogs.......Still to cold to really enjoy fishing in Idaho and they are off to Moab next weekend to rock climb in their razor with Tiff and Scott.

A THOUGHT:....People make time for who they want to make time for.....People text and reply to people they want to talk to.....Never believe anyone who says they've been too busy.....If they wanted to be around you......they would!

Big family party tomorrow.....still cold here.

 

Wow......been a busy day here in MESQUITE......Finally got Leslie in the shower for the first time......wore her out.' Then off to Walmart shopping and that is a two hour trip for me no matter when I go. Then we were off to the movie to see Jungle Book with Kristi's family and Dukane....Getting Les up and down the stairs has not been worked out completely yet.  Cade and his friend stopped by on their way to Las Vegas to celebrate Lauren's birthday......hadn't seen him for a very long time.  AND Kristi and Phillip bought a house today.   Sherrie called and one of her horses died this morning which made her sad.....Brayden is coming along good with his foot operation.

We are both tired tonight......

I AM LEARNING.......

 

I am trying to learn how to walk away from people and situations that threaten my peace of mind, self respect or my self worth!......some days it works and some days it doesn't work.  We all have a choice every single day to choose to feel blessed......to live in a free country, have good health, a roof over our head and food. We have the choice to feel grateful for what we have.....or not.  We have the choice to get excited, be thankful, be happy and count our blessings.....I have so many and get angry with myself when I don't live up to my potential......and thank God for every day.

"THE ONLY TIME TO LOOK BACK IS TO SEE HOW FAR GOD HAS BROUGHT YOU"

Today my Kenney was having his four wisdom teeth out and thinking about going on a mission.  I hope he pops back like Brayden did.....Alex had a harder time with it.

Tamrie and Jarred and Brayley stayed all night with us last night.....so we had a full house.  Kristi and Philip are cooking dinner for us tonight.  Windy, cloudy and cooler today.

HANGING IN NEVADA.......

 

Well to catch up a little.......I have been in Mesquite, NV a week tomorrow......My sweet Pam drove me down to help my sister after her ankle operation......and is tending Gigi......I have completely 'GHOSTED' out of my life in SLC.  I told several neighbors I was going......but have not wanted to talk with anyone but family since I got here......just get away.....a real break from THAT life.  I do like it here and can see myself in a little place like this......but guess that will have to be in my next life......I just can't go through another move with my 84th birthday only days away.

Les cannot drive so I have been delegated to run to the store, fast food joints, take Brayley to school or any other chores I can help out with.......spent10 minutes hunting my car at Smilth's the other day only to remember I was driving my sister's car that day......have had to go around the block now and then to get headed the right direction, but haven't had to call Leslie to get me back home yet.  We watch TV, read, embroidery, color or work on the computer.....and her kids and grandkids are in and out all the time to help us out.  The nice hot weather I came down to enjoy has not materialized yet......rained all last weekend and cool today.  We ran to St. George for Leslie's doctor appointment today and had lunch with my niece Tami Norton and Kevin's daughter and husband....... Tamrie and Jarred......Les got the stitches out and good news........ maybe a walking cast on next week!!!  Being house bound is about to get to her after a month.

And so APRIL is flying by........

BIG BIRTHDAY........

Due to the fact I am out of town and my computer not working I didn't get much blogging done this past week!!!!!

My niece got me at least hooked into Wi-Fi here but can't get email or Facebook.......Yesterday was a big birthday in our family.......48 years ago yesterday I had identical twin girls.....Sherrie and Karrie.   I would have loved to be with both celebrating like we use to do......maybe the Spaghetti Factory .........or NOT......but time changes everything.  I have been in Mesquite, NV for a week helping Leslie who had an ankle replaced.......and will be here to the end of the month.  I am enjoying my days with Leslie but expected it to be warmer......lots of rain over the weekend.  I talked to Sherrie and wished her Happy Birthday......but Karrie not speaking so didn't bother her.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWINS.

READY TO GO.........

I am with this guy on that!!!!  For so many years I was off around the world to see something new......now not so much....but I am packed and off to spend the rest of the month taking care of little sister after her foot operation in Mesquite, NV....Pam and Sherrie are tending Gigi and the neighbors and SimpliSafe will be taking care of my house.  It will be warm and I need a change of scenery......maybe some movies and slip a few nickels in the slots.  When I get home it will be flower planting time and hopefully summer will have arrived.  Depression is no fun!!!
          'Try not judge people.....You don't know what it took someone to get out of bed, look and feel as presentable as possible and face the day.....You never truly know the daily struggle of others""
         "Within you is the power to rise above any situation or struggle and transform into the brightest, strongest version of you ever!"
           So glad that Leslie and Brayden are both healing nicely from their foot operations.....and glad to have my BRAY home.

LDS CONFERENCE TIME........

Loved this man.......and if he says so.  President Hinckley grew up on a farm in Huntsville, Utah next to the farm of my x-father-in-law and for some reason that always made it seem like he was an old neighbor.  He is gone now and President Monson is the president of the LDS Church and this weekend is spring conference.

Today as usual I have no energy and feel I am fighting depression.......all I want to do is sleep!  I wrote last time about depression and the more I think about it the more I think I am ANGRY!!!!  which has brought this on.   I just cannot believe one of my children is treating her whole family like we were invisible......I taught her better and have decided it is not because I am a failure of a Mother........I am truly looking forward to some time away this month with my sister and a new environment.......I know......THIS TOO WILL PASS!

"Eventually you have to learn that life is too beautiful to waste being angry or sad.....Enjoy the amazing things that life has to offer"......

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