THERE IS A FORMULA......

  Well here we are ......the last day of September......the Fall flowers are so pretty but the frost will get them soon.  The yellow of Sun Flowers make me smile.  I am spending a very quiet day in Vernal.....boys off to school and work.  Alex not feeling good......hope Ken doesn't get it.  A bright spot in my day started off with 8 beautiful deer wandering across the field next to Sherrie's house......on their way to the lake I guess.  Long email from Brayden and Richard yesterday......so great to hear from or about them each week. 

Been thinking there must be a formula for happiness like.......Every day, do some things you need to do.....but not your whole list......something you want to do......can't do chores all the time!  Then something that will help you make your dreams come true like cleaning closets, drawers or cupboards that get rid of so much stuff that just seems to creep in one thing at a time over the 27 years I have lived in my condo. Dreading the thought of moving, but the girls seem pretty firm and determined I need to.....NOW!

LET IT GO......

  "LET IT GO"     Whatever someone has done to you is going to be........Attracted right back to them at some point!  You are not involved in this process.......It's simple law of attraction.....Stop carrying it around and let the universe take care of it........Good, Bad or Indifferent.....Their stuff.....Their lesson."  I found this quit a comforting thought and will work on it.........

What if your life has lots of excitement, but you're never relaxed or content? Or visa versa?  You are the only one who can judge where you are in life......Many people are mostly promotion or mostly prevention and are happy that way.  So check your status.....I find that life has become more about pursuing peace and contentment than being pumped up and excited about everything......and find there is nothing wrong with that as I age. I don't feel I am missing out on happiness; my happiness has evolved, just as I have........  Marriage, babies, travel etc. I have done a lot........And even though this new version might seem a bit more low-key.....and it is..... that doesn't mean it's less wonderful or any less satisfying.  It simply means that I am coming to terms with my age, aches and capabilities......and enjoying all the good stuff I still have going on in my life.....like going to lunch with my second grandson today.

HUMAN BODIES.......

  Well, here I am baby sitting and nothing much to do.....the boys are 21 and 16 and are really taking care of me!  So I eat to pass the time......I know how this poor lady feels.  A two pound box of candy should never make you gain 5 pounds, but if you added a few cookies and chips along with it......maybe??

Good words from a massage therapist who has seen a lot of naked bodies......adults sag......it doesn't matter how fit they are.  Every decade, an adult sags a little more.  All the tissue hangs a little looser and they wrinkle too.  He does not know who started the rumor that just old people wrinkle because as soon as you are grown  it starts and continues as long as you live. Lean people have a kind of rawboned, unfinished look about them that is very appealing.  But they don't have plump round breasts and a plump round behind.....and those who do also have a plump round belly and plump round thighs as well.  Woman have cellulite....all of them.  It's dimply and cute and not a defect,   Men have silly buttocks.   They are kind of scrawny and the tissue is jumpy because it's unpadded; not attractive at all.....So now I feel a little better about the strange things going on in this 82 year old body......I'm normal!

Enjoying a lazy day with my boys.

Back in VERNAL......

 Up early and Alex's cute fiancé, Lindsey, picked me up and we headed out to Vernal where I will stay this week and keep things moving around here.  I am staying in Brayden's room and there are so many reminders of him in there......I miss him so much, he was very special to me, but know he wanted to go on the mission so much.    Today is Lindsey's mother's birthday and she was coming home from college to surprise her and take her out to dinner.....of course, Alex is in on it and they insist I go with them to dinner as Kenney is staying over with a friend tonight......she has a great mother.  It is fun to watch two young people in love and remembering when......so many years ago.  Sherrie called and was in Atlanta waiting for their flight to Peru......I am excited for them.

I hurt so bad today......don't know if it is the weather, stress of the thought of moving, not exercising enough or what?  Maybe a week without the stairs will help my knees. Enjoying this beautiful fall weather and the green fields and pastures with the horses and cows also enjoying the weather.  This house has many pretty views. 

EVERY THING THAT YOU DO IN LIFE IS INSIGNIFICANT.....YET IT IS IMPORTANT THAT YOU DO IT.

(Mahatma Gandhi]

WALKING WITH GRANDMA.......

I am starting to believe nothing in life is all bad.......take for instance slowing down and hurting when you walk.....well some of our little ones out there look at it much differently.....so should we.  Yes, when you are shuffling, hobbling, limping along it definitely gives you time to take in the world around you......so do!  Went to a movie a few weeks ago with my two youngest grandsons......the 16 year old is 6'4" and the 13 year old is 5'4".....I am about 5"2".......well with one on each arm I found I was moving at a unbelievable pace.....no holding hands and strolling with those two......my feet were hardly touching the ground?  The poem is cute and gives you something to think about.   Beautiful, beautiful Fall day......going to stain a baby cradle I got at the garage sale for Tiffany and trying to clean out closets and drawers.......they really need it ........move or not.

RULES OF LIFE.....

As I look back I wonder how I faced some of the things I got through.....divorce final, dog put down and my Mercedes died and had the bumper and oil pan pulled out....all in one day and then finding........ taking out a mortgage.......... and moving into a new condo with two 18 year olds in college.  I learned about mortgages......paying income tax, quarterlies and house taxes......... and income tax.  I learned how to sell and buy cars for the girls and I......  Yes, there are many battles in my life I hoped I would never have to face or cross.....a lot of shoulda....wouldas......couldas in the past 28 years, but with faith and prayer......I am doing good.  I like the rules of life I saw ......1.  Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.  CHECK   2.  What others think of you is none of you business.  CHECK  3.  Time heals almost everything, give it time.....TRUE  4. Don't compare your life to others  and don't judge them.  You have no idea what their journey is all about. CHECK  5.  Stop thinking to much....it's alright not to know all the answers.  They will come to you when you least expect it.  CHECK  6.No one is in charge of your happiness......but you.  CHECK  So hang in there and never give up hope and have faith.  Right now I am in the middle of should I sell my house and look for a place on ground level with no yard, stairs and laundry on the main floor?????  They worry and I appreciate their concern......just I'm old and tired and hurt lots and seems like a huge thing.......maybe in the morning it will look different!   Went to a movie and  lunch with Shirley today........... Lucille's Becky is getting married the 11th of October......she is in her 50's and her first marriage?????

ON RIGHT PATH.......

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Did you ever wonder if your on the right path?......I like to believe "I'm not stuck; my GPS is just recalculating......I'm not lost; I 'm just finding my way......I'm not running late, either;.....I'm right on time for my dreams to start coming true.......There's more than one route to success, and I'm definitely on one!"
TODAY I see possibilities I didn't see before.  Today I can make great choices that boost my health and happiness.  Today, I can decide to dream instead of doubt.  There is just no limit to what I can do with today......a
TODAY my three daughters appeared with definitely something on their minds......we circled the table and they informed me they think I need  a ground level place????SOON.....they worry I will fall up or down my 3 floor split level.......where I have lived 27 years........ this November 18th.  Well, secretly I have been thinking how nice one level would be....  My knees are really bothering me, I don't like the big back yard, I don't like going down in the basement to do laundry and even Gigi is getting bad hips and the stair are hard on my dog........Well is it a coincidence or is it meant to be that one just came up on another street. If it is not too much and the kids would help with the remodeling it might just be the answer to every one's prayers........Karrie was going to have Richard do some checking and talk to the people.....his forte....I doubt if I sleep much tonight thinking about how much work a move for me will me.
"THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON......JUST BELIEVE".......