NEVER SAY NEVER.........

There is always time for a little prayer......and god always listens.........

I think back and try to remember how many times I have said NEVER......Never say "Never"......I am trying to eliminate it from my vocabulary.....I have learned there are things I prefer, and others I avoid, but the word never leaves no room for unseen situations, and never covers a long, long time.......with the many unknowns of life.

A THOUGHT:  Everything exists on the planet for a reason.  Everyone thing has a purpose.  There are no freaks, misfits or accidents.  There are only misunderstandings and mysteries not yet revealed to mortal man by God.......A great story and example of this is a woman complaining of the terrible swarms of bush flies that flew into her ears, nose, throat and clung to her skin.  She hated them and fought them off and could not understand why the natives of this tribe stood still until they moved on......A caring member told her everything in Oneness has a purpose.......to you they are bad, but to us they are necessary and helpful.  They crawl down our ears and clean out the wax and sand from sleeping on the ground, they climb up our nose and clean it out so we can breath better and they eat up the dead skin our body is constantly slufing off each day......and we eat their larva  for protein.....so it makes you stop and think and ponder how these people with so little........ have so much......and can be so smart learning to live with what they have and endure..

Went to church this morning and to see the Minions.......could hardly stay awake.

ABOUT TO GIVE UP..........

 

I truly know this to be true.......but it is oh so tempting......to say some of the mean things you are feeling and thinking.....but no one can fight alone so just walk off.

Two fun days with friends.....yesterday was Bonnie's birthday.....so we celebrated with lunch and Mexican Train at Shirley's house.......lost my keys and got a long list of to-do's from the buyer of my house......will this never end????? The boys said we could handle it next week......I just want it done.!

Got a new wireless printer a couple of days ago and having trouble with it already.....I hate all these fancy new gadgets......maybe someone will come by and help me out.

Today Patty and Ruth came for lunch.....with these two anything goes....Patty lost her husband about six weeks ago and Ruth's could go any time....... mine has been gone 29 years the 18th of this month......hard to feel sorry for them and I want to tell them life single isn't all bad.

Guess I'll do a movie and church this weekend.......not much else happening.

ONE OF THOSE DAYS......

How can you tell when your going to have a good day????  Some days are, some days aren't!  My day was going Okay when after spending an hour writing a letter to my missionary......the printer would not turn on so I could print it and get it in the mail......Then I was off to get my nails done, no problem, found some shoes to go with my new dress for Andre's wedding but when I got home and got the mail.....I had a jury summons and a letter from the Real Estate that didn't make sense so Pam and Rob are coming over to HELP me......understand it all.  My life wasn't always like this.......
               I liked this proverb from the Indians......When the blood in your veins return to the sea and the earth in your bones returns to the ground........Perhaps then you will remember that this land does not belong to you.....It is you who belongs to the land.  Sherrie made Brayden and I each a book of her talks from her journal....so much work but something I will always cherish.........as for me, I don't do talks in church.......or prayers.

LIVE....LOVE.....LAUGH

I got a wonderful message from my Missionary today......he loves me and misses me and sent a cute picture of a mother deer and a baby deer he saw and thought of me.  Brayden I love you and will write more emails ....promise.
                   I didn't get much done today......the floors and washed my sheets.  Talked to Pam, Lucille and Leslie and that always makes my day.  My todo list is long for this week.....but not making any promises.  Trying to teach my dog about the electric fence and am literately ready to kill her......she is 13 and the saying "you can't teach old dogs new tricks" was quoted by someone trying to get their dog use to using the back yard......and the electric collar......maybe tomorrow.  Really tired tonight and don't have much to say........

SURVIVED THE FOURTH????

 Why does it take so long?  I started to church 3 weeks ago to please my children.......they have been so good to me.....I know in their hearts this is where they want me to be.....and they have no idea how hard it has been for me to get here......since last October my life has been on their terms.....move, live with Pannier's (which was great fun), empty boxes and find places for your things and find many missing that were not your choice to give to the DI......try and sell the condo for four and a half months.......It is finally under contract.....but was once before......I have cried barrels and been so depressed......but three weeks ago I decided I had been asking so much from God.......maybe I should show him I could give a little so went to church with my darling neighbors the HILLS.....and guess what.......I enjoyed it and I am anxious to know everyone in our small ward and my inner peace is coming back....so many of my neighbors are LDS I want to belong and help out and be helped.  Today I was amazed......Sherrie had put the church books in my "IPAD" and in class when everyone was looking up the scriptures they were using I could find them also.....I am lucky to have God, have children and good neighbors......and hopefully when I sell the condo and pay the boys back I will find INNNER peace again.  I don't want my last days to end like they have been......I am sorry all of my children are at war with each other and me......but I have to find peace other places and maybe God is testing me for some reason.......HAPPY SUNDAY.

A DAY LATE AND A .....OH YOU KNOW?????

I find to often anymore I am a day late and a dollar short.........but honestly I didn't have a minute to wish my family Happy Fourth of July..........All the kids were out of town having fun with their families......so what does a lonesome old grandma do????......She calls up her friends .....whose kids are out of town and they are lonesome.......and we put out heads together to see what trouble we can get into. Sooooo we started out at Gardener village.....shopped around and had lunch......then home to let all our dogs out to pee and then off to a movie......then I had to water Pam's flowers and feed the fish and let my dog out again.....In the mean time Shirley losses her keys and cannot get into her house......a little panic to spark up the day......she finally found her son who had another set of keys........(these old ladies, I am sure Scott was thinking)....... and we were off to get some dinner before the program and fireworks at Holiday Elementary......we were quite early........Oh yes, as we went to get in the car to leave for dinner I crawled into the backseat of Bonnie's car......and under the front seat were Shirley's keys!!!! we all decided not to tell this to Scott for a few days.......a quick dinner ......then off to set up our chairs and get a good parking spot.  Fun evening "people watching" before the band got there and wonderful fireworks.....I got home finally at 11:45......after starting off at 10:30....13 hours on the go.....IWASDONE!

I just want the kids to know.......I got along wonderfully before you came along and I will get

along with or without you now!...but, not because I want to!

WOW....HOW DID IT GET TO BE JULY????

Oh......how I will try to make these words come true....... Yesterday.....July first, I went to lunch, a movie and shopping with friends only to hear from my Real estate Broker I had an offer on my condo.   We worked through it all afternoon and arrived at 318,000.00 with me paying her closing fees........which is what Darren and Robby told me was ok from my original offer of 325,000.00......anyhow I signed a contract to sell and hopefully close on the 28th of July......for 318,000.00....I will have nothing left by the time I pay my loan......my real estate fees and Darren for remodeling......but it will be done and maybe I can close the door on that chapter of my life.......the months since October of last year have almost done me in........Leslie and I need to go on a cruise, but we neither one can afford one........so today I turned to Nordstrom's Rack.....because Pam had found 2 really cute dresses out there to wear to see Nicci and I found a dress I will wear to Annie's Wedding......Now I just have to lose 20 pounds!........anyway my world looks a little brighter tonight with the house under contract.  My cute neighbor Ivan brought me down some chocolate strawberries and my other neighbor NU brought me some hot pears in a really good sauce last night......Betty....it is all good! 

"DON'T REGRET GROWING OLDER IT IS A PRVILAGE DENIED TO MANY"