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THESE ARE THE TWO CUTE KIDS WHO WILL BE MY NEW ROOMMATES IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS....LOVE YOU BRAYDEN AND LIBBY.....AND THANKS FOR YOUR CARING AND CONCERN FOR GRAMMIE THESE PAST FEW WEEKS.....YOU HAVE SEEN....I AM GETTING OLD .......AND I DO NEED SOME HELP TO KEEP GOING....I LOOK FORWARD TO SOME FUN GAME NIGHTS AND DINNERS.....AND YOU WILL MAKE MY HOLIDAYS SO MUCH FUN!!!!

YEA...ROOM MATES.....

YOU ALL MAY NOT BELIEVE  THIS....BUT JUST WAIT TILL YOU GET OLD!

THE LAST TWO TRIPS TO PAM'S CABIN IN IDAHO .....SHE HAS INVITED ME TO GO UP WITH HER.....BUT I COULDN'T TAKE "MY OWN" BED OR HIGH TOILET....AND SO I JUST TOLD HER I COULDN'T DO IT.....AND THE "DOING NOTHING" THING IS ABOUT WHAT I AM UP TO.......

A VERY QUIET WEEKEND....WITH WINTER KNOCKING AT OUR DOOR.  I DID DO MY LAUNDRY, TURN ON THE DISHWASHER AND READ A FEW MAGAZINES.....AND START TO CLEAN OUT MY HALL PANTRY AND REARRANGE SOME THINGS IN THE BASEMENT SO I CAN MAKE ROOM FOR BRIAN AND LIBBY IN TWO WEEKS....I AM EXCITED TO HAVE ROOM MATES AND HELP THE KIDS SAVE AND GET THEIR EDUCATION.  THEY WILL BE GONE A LOT OF THE TIME .....WHICH IS OK.....I DO MY GOING IN THE DAY TIME WHILE THEY ARE GONE AND GO TO BED WITH THE CHICKENS.....THEY WILL BE BUSY WITH SCHOOL ,,,,,WORK,,,,,,CHURCH,,,,,AND THEIR OWN FRIENDS AND SCHEDULE....AND HOPEFULLY SAVE A LITTLE MONEY.....AND GRANDMA......RESTING, SLEEPING, A  LITTLE KNITTING AND GAMES WITH THE GIRLS...YOU KNOW.....WHAT OLD PEOPLE DO.

FINDING WABI-SABI......

What is Wabi-Sabi?

I found Wabi-Sabi a long time ago....Wabi means simpliciy and Sabi means beauty in age,,,,,,, Together, wabi-sabi forms a Japanese aesthetic all about embracing inperfection......The main concept is simple....Nothing is perfect....permanent.....or finished and that's part of the beauty.....

In a world dominated by social media perfection, wabi-sabi is a welcome invitation to pause and appreciate what is real.....also of interest....is REIKI.....IT is energy.  A universal life force that flows through all living things......Utilize it's healing power.....what we give, we also receive.....think positive thougts....receive positive actions.....

AND REMEMBER....."THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON...JUST BELIEVE"

IT'S CANCER. NOW WHAT?

ON THIS BEAUTIFUL SEPT DAY.....I JUST THANK GOD FOR THE GIFT OF ANOTHER DAY IN WHICH I AM ABLE TO GET UP AND ENJOY...YES, I WORRY ABOUT HAVING CANCER AND WHAT IS AHEAD IN THE TIME GOD GRANTS ME TO LIVE......I AM SURE MY GRANDMOTHER.....MOTHER....SISTER AND NOW MY DAUGHTER AND I ALL HAVE THESE CONCERNS.....

"ROUGH PATCHES NEVER LAST, STORM CLOUDS ALWAYS PASS AND HAPPINESS ALWAYS PREVAILS!  REST ASSURED THAT BETTER TOMORROWS ARE ALREADY ON THEIR WAY, AND THEY ARE BRINGING WITH THEM AN ABUNDANCE OF JOYS....EVEN MORE THAN YOU HAVE BEEN HOPING FOR"......

CARING AND ADVOCATING FOR YOURSELF IS THE KEY.....SO I WILL ENJOY EVERY SINGLE DAY.....

BEST DAUGHTER EVER...

YESTERDAY MY SWEET DAUGHTER AND SON KEN CAME AND C LEANED MY HOUSE FROM TOP TO BOTTOM......I  MEAN REALLY DEEP CLEANED EVERYTING...SUCH 

SWEET PEOPLE.....MIRRORS....STAIRS....TOILETS...SHEETS, FRONT PORCH NEW PUMPKINS....  RUGS ETC. SHER EVEN TESTED MY TASHER ON HER LEG WHEN SHE  GOT TO CLOSE.....FRESH FLOWERS, CANDY CORN....I AM SO SPOILED IT IS TAKING ME A WHILE TO GET GOING AFTER THIS CANCER THING AND THE KIDS ARE NOT USE NOT  TO HAVING A "GRANDMA WHO ISN'T HER".......I DO SLEEP A LOT BUT I WILL GET BACK TO ME,,,,,,A NEW TURN AWHILE AGO....BRAYDEN AND LIBBY MOVE INTO MY BASEMENT TO HELP ME AND SAVE SOME MONEY FOR A HOUSE??????

WOW.....SEPTEMBER FLYING BY......

BOY.....DOES THIS REALLY COME TO YOU IN TIME OF NEED......A WONDERFUL FAMILY WHO CARES AND ARE THERE FOR YOU. THESE PAST FEW WEEKS HAVE REALLY BEEN A TRIAL....MAMOGRAM.....MAMOGRAM AGAIN?????  BIOPSY......FINDINGS WITH ALL THREE DAUGHTERS THERE TO HEAR THE BAD NEWS...."CANCER"......DR APPOINTMENT.....OPERATION.....DRS. FINDINGS....A MONTHS HEALING AND FINAL DECISION OF RADATION OR PILL OR BOTH!!!! THAT IS WHERE WE ARE AT THIS POINT,

THE GREATEST  HAPPENING IS ......KARRIE HAS JOINED OUR FAMILY UNIT AGAIN....KINDA....BUT HELPED ME SO MUCH.....SHE IS STRUGGLING WITH HER CANCER....SO AM I...."LEFT BREASTS".......THIS IS BETTER THAN A FUNERAL....WHEN CONNECTING AGAIN IS TOO LATE!

AND

I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE A SISTER WHO IS THERE FOR ME ALL THE WAY......AT THIS POINT SHE IS DOWN WITH A FOOT PROBLEM SO WE CAN UNDERSTAND EACH OTHERS FRUSTRATION ON BEING HOUSE BOUND BECAUSE WE ARE NOT OUR OLD SELVES......BUT GIVE US A FEW WEEKS AND WE WILL BOUNCH BACK....BECAUSE OUR PARENTS TAUGHT US TO.......THANK  YOU MOM AND DAD......AND  THANK YOU LITTLE SISTER TO HELP ME KEEP GOING,,,,,,

QUIET TIME......

SEEMS FOR MANY YEARS...."BREASTS".....HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH BEING SEXY?

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN IN THE "FLAT CHESTED" GATAGORY.....SO DIDN'T WORRY MUCH ABOUT MY CHEST......BUT NOW THAT THEY TOOK A BIG CHUNK OUT OF ONE OF MINE....AND EVERY MOVE I MAKE.....REMINDS ME OF THAT CANCER OPERATION.......MAKES ME MORE AWARE HOW BIG A PART YOUR BOOBS PLAY IN A WOMAN'S LIFE.  AFTER 87 1/2 YEARS MY BOOBS HAVE KINDA BECOME A PART OF ME....NOW THAT ONE NIPPLE IS GONE ......I REGRET THE MANY YEARS I PUT BAND-AIDS OVER THEM SO NO ONE WOULD KNOW I HAD THEM.....REGRETS?  YES A FEW! A MARILYN MONROE LOOK AT MY AGE IS CERTAINLY NOT IMPORTANT THOUGH.......AND AS FOR BRAS....I THINK I WILL PUT THEM ON MY......"BEEN THERE DONE THAT LIST".....FOR SURE.....NOBODY IS LOOKING AT..OR FOR.....MY BOOBS!

IT'S OK......

IT

IF THE MOUNTAINS SEEMS TOO BIG TODAY.....

THEN CLIMB A HILL INSTEAD....

IF THE MORNING BRINGS YOU SADNESS....IT'S OK TO STAY IN BED......

IF THE DAY AHEAD WEIGHTS HEAVY .....AND YOUR PLANS FEEL LIKE A CURSE....

THERE IS NO SAME IN REARANGEING....DON'T MAKE YOURSELF FEEL WORSE.

IF A SHOWER STINGS LIKE NEEDLES.....AND A BATH FEEL LIKE YOU'LL DROWN....

IF YOU HAVEN'T WASHED YOUR HAIR FOR DAYS.....

DON'T THROW AWAY YOUR CROWN.

A DAY IS NOT A LIFETIME A REST IS NOT DEFEAT.....DON'T THINK OF IT AS FAILURE.....

JUST A QUIET KIND RETREAT....

IT'S OK TO TAKE A MOMENT FROM AN ANXIOUS FRACTURED MIND.....

THE WORLD WILL NOT STOP TURNING WHILE YOU REALIGNED.....

THE MOUNTAIN WILL STILL BE THERE.....WHEN YOU WANT TO TRY AGAIN...

SO CLIMB IT IN YOUR OWN TIME....AND LOVE YOURSELF TILL THEN!

MY COMFORT FOOD.....

DREDING MY BREAST SURGERY......MY SWEET SHERRIE BROUGHT IN HER NATCHO

MACHINE.....OR BETTER YET....DARREN'S LAST YEAR BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM HER....SO I WOULD HAVE "SOME COMFORT FOOD".....WHILE I WAIT FOR MY SURGERY......HOW NICE TO KNOW AT ANY TIME A BIG HOT PLATE OF NATCHOS IS SITTING RGHRT ON YOUR COUNTER....MY NEIGHBORS LIKED IT TOO......SOME 7-11 IS PROBABLY MINUS THEIR NATCHO MACHINE.....BUT I DIDN'T ASK?  I HAVE A VERY INVENTIVE FAMILY......AND IT DID COMFORT ME!!!!!

DID YOU EVER WONDER......ARE WE SAYING WHAT WE THINK WE ARE  SAYING?  ARE PEOPLE HEARING WHAT WE ARE SAYING OR WHAT WE MEAN OR THINK WE ARE SAYING?  THAT IS MY QUESTION OF THE WEEK.

ONE MORE THING..."YOU DO NOT EARN RESPECT....BY TOLERATING DISRESPECT."......I NEED TO QUOTE THIS TO THE CRAZY LADY CAUSING CAOUIS IN OUR CONDO UNIT!

AWHHHHH FALL.....

CRUISED RIGHT INTO SEPTEMBER WITH THUNDER....LIGHTENING AND RAIN..AND PUMPKINS ARE POPPING UP IN EVERY STORE.....I HATE TO SEE SUMMBER END....BUT WITH MY FALL AND CANCER.....I AM HOPING I START HAVING BETTER LUCK.  HAD A NICE GARDEN WITH SUZANNE....AND SOME FUN VISITS WITH KIDS, GRANDKIDS AND GREAT GRANDSON.  SO NICE LES AND I ARE BACK IN THE CIRCLE WITH JIM...AFTER ACE LEFT HIM...HE CAN BE FAMILY AGAIN.  A WEEKEND IN MESQUITE AND VEGAS FOR MY BIRTHDAY WITH MIKE  AND TWO WEEKS RECOOPERATING IN VERNAL WITH SHER WAS ABOUT ALL I DID.....IT WAS FUN HAVING KRISTI, LES AND BRALEE A FEW WEEKEND FOR BALL GAMES. THE FROSTING ON THE CAKE IS HAVING BRAY AND LIBBY CLOSE BY AND SUCH WILLING HELPERS.  OH YES.....OUR FIRST SNOW IN THE MTS ALREADY.

THIS TIME LAST WEEK?

WELL....HERE I AM ALL SMILES LAST THURSDAY..... (september 5th).....GETTING READY TO PUT ON A LOVELY HOSPITAL GOWN, BLUE HAT AND SOXS....AND HEAD FOR BREAST SURGERY.  IT WAS A LONG DAY.....6:30 TO 4:30....WHEN PAM FINALLY GOT ME HOME....FEELING PRETTY GOOD FROM DRUGS.  KARRIE DROPPED BY BEFORE SURGERY WITH SOUP FOR PAM'S LUNCH AND A LITTLE GOLD BRACELET WITH "BREATH" WRITTEN ON IT FOR ME.....SO NICE TO HAVE KAR BACKING ME AFTER SHE JUST WENT THROUGH THE SAME THING FOUR MONTHS AGO!

WELL A WEEK DOWN THE ROAD I AM TIRED AND HURT.  I AM TO HEAL A MONTH AND THE DOCTORS WILL DECIDED IF I AM TO HAVE THREE WEEKS OF RADATION AND THEN A PILL FOR FIVE YEARS......LIKE KAR DID.....OR IF I CAN GET BY WITH JUST A PILL AND HOPE WITH THE FEW YEARS I HAVE LEFT......TAKE OUR CHANCES ON ANOTHER BOUGHT WITH CANCER.  I AM NOT A GENE CARRIER...BUT AFTER GRANDPA AND GRANDMA GOFF.....MOTHER....SISTER JO AND DAUGHTER KARRIE......CANCER IS REALLY SCAREY FOR ME.

JUST THINKIG......

TUCKER AND HIS GREAT-AUNT SHERRIE  1 MO.

"We are each of us, a MIRACLE.  Within everyone of us, the pilot light of HOPE never dies"

My life has been falling apart....but falling together at the same time.  Every person that has walked away has been replaced by someone better.....Every situation that has not worked out has led me to a greater one.  So now when things go left, I know  it's for something else to go right.....

They say....your home shouuld tell the story of who you are....and be a collection of what you love.......I think my little place could be a good example.....This week I have had my fun grandson Ken with me and his dog.....plus grandpa Bud trusted me with his prize possesstion CODY.....while they are crusin to Alaska.  My treasures are on every nook and cranney......and walls plastered with treasures....I couldn't ask for more.  Best friend Patty dropped by for me to help her bind off an afagan she just finished......She is my GO TO FRIEND.....always there when you need a friend.

COUNTING HOURS......

Well, this time tomorrow......now counting the  hours.....I WILL be lop-sidded as part of my left boob will be gone  .....AND HOPEFULLY ALL THE CANCER! Some Good news.....my DNA came back negative on me having a Cancer gene to pass on.....good news to the girls in my family.

Can.t believe the many caring people in my life in time of a crisis.  Last night Ken and Brayden gave me a blessing and my neighbor offered one.  Sweet Honh ....brought several meals over for the freezer.....calls and concerns from many......and my sweet girls are so supportive....also Jim and Les have kept in touch....Sherrie said many of her friends and neighbors send their love and prayers.  I know I am not the first or only person to get the dreaded word from your doctor....."YOU HAVE BREAST CANCER AND IT IS IN YOUR LYMPH GLANDS".....But I have faith and many prayers to get me through this.

As you can see my perfect day is listed above.....

HAPPY LABOR DAY......

WELL.....HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A HAPPY LABOR DAY WEEKEND....

KEN AND I AND THE TWO DOGS.....ARE HAVING A VERY QUIET DAY.....WE WASHED AND CLEANED MY CAR.....HIT WALMART....AND THE ICE BERG FOR LUNCH.....THEN SACKED OUT!.....ALL THE FAMILY HAVE LEFT TOWN ON CRUISES...WEDDINGS....AND VACATIONS.....LAST NIGHT MIKE AND KATIE CAME FOR DINNER AND MEXICAN TRAIN....WHICH WAS FUN....KEN WON!!!

HOME IS A GOOD PLACE TO BE WHEN YOU ARE A LITTLE STRESSED....LUMPECTAMY GOT ME WORRIED NEXT THRUSDAY....BUT I HAVE FAITH IT WILL ALL END OK.  I TALKED TO LESLIE AND THEY GOT HOME AT 3:30 THIS MORNING FROM OKLAHOMA AND SHE IS WORN OUT....SHE HAS FOOT SURGERY FRIDAY.........AND HERE WE ARE INTO THE MONTH OF SEPTEMBER AND SUMMER IS OVER FOR ANOTHER YEARS!!!!

MY DNA'....

WELL HAPPY LABOR DAY TO EVERYONE.....

THIS IS A PICTURE I CHERISH.....THIS IS MY DNA BACKGROUND....... 99.9 BRITISH.....MY MAIDEN NAME ....."YEOMANS"....VERY ENGLISH.  THIS WONDERFUL PAIR MADE ME WHO I AM....AND I THANK THEM WITH ALL MY HEART.  NO, THEY WERE NOT PERFECT PEOPLE.....BUT NO ONE IS PERFECT......I THANK THEM FOR THEIR HARD WORK AND SACRIFICES SO THAT I COULD ALWAYS HAVE ENOUGH......AND THEIR UNENDING LOVE.