Monday, November 24, 2008

Sad and Happy

A sad week for me, we buried my younger sister Dixie Lee. She was buried next to her husband
and youngest daughter. She had been ill for eight years with lung and breathing problems brought on from smoking since she was 16.......
A happy week for me, because my three girls and their families, sister, brother, friends and
relatives were very supportive with love and being there for me. Funerals seem to be times
for reunions and I saw many cousins, uncles and friends I hadn't seen for years.
I will not stay sad, I realize that every word I hear triggers a picture in my mind that results in a corresponding emotion. These pictures and feelings can be either supportive or debilitating.
Try cancer, death, accident, problem, pressure, failure, can't, won't , impossible,
Now try, vacation, play, Hawaii, love excitement, friends, trust, success, happiness, I can, I will.
Every word, however fleeting is a seed. When planted in your mind, each seed yields a positive or negative picture, along with a positive or negative feeling. I will be vigilant of the words I plant. I will enjoy all the good memories I have of my "little sister."

Monday, November 3, 2008

''Haba Na Haba Hujaza Kibaba"

"Haba Na Haba Hujaza Kibaba"..........."Little by little fills the pot!" A Swahili Proverb...........
I love this little saying..........That is really the way a life is lived, little by little or one day at a
time. You live as you die, little by little. My second sister is gravely ill, and her life is ending day
by day a little at a time. I feel sad, her choice of smoking for many years was not a good choice!
My youngest sister and I just got back from a wonderful two week driving trip through the
New England States. October a perfect time of year to enjoy the leaves........I always say the
best part of memories is creating them. I journaled every day as I always do and titled the
memo "You and Me and the GPS". We would still be wandering around Pennsylvania somewhere without "Mertle." Every morning we got out the atlas and said let's head for that
place and put it in "Mert" and off we would go. She seemed to prefer the back roads and every
getto in the 10 states we hit, but we got to see some beautiful country that way. Very few free-ways were even touched. I just learned to Tex so kept the family informed on my where-a-bouts. Started in RI, MA,NH,VT,NY,NJ,DE,CT,PA AND MD........Not in that order though. So
I say if your hitting the road get you a Mertle to be your companion. We argued with her a few
times and had our doubts about her not knowing how lost we felt, but she always came through
loud and clear when we made a wrong turn............and always got us to our destination. Will I
ever get enough traveling????