WOKE UP ONE MORNING.....

        LIFE IS NOT FAIR.......I WAKE UP EVERY MORNING.......AND AM I AT THE BEACH IN ST. THOMAS WITH MY CHRISTENSON FAMILY.......NO....... I AM IN MY OWN LITTLE BED AND IT IS SNOWING OUTSIDE!  SHERRIE JUST CALLED AND SAID SHE WAS KEEPING KEN AND BRAYDEN DOWN THERE UNTIL FRIDAY WHEN THEY COME HOME......THEY WERE TO ARRIVE WEDNESDAY AND GET BACK TO SCHOOL AND MISSIONARY WORK! GOOD FOR THEM......A FAMILY VACATION WITH EVERYONE TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOUR YEARS BECAUSE THE TWO OLDER ONES WERE ALWAYS AWAY ON A MISSION......IS SOMETHING TO ENJOY.......
                                                     BUT........
      ONE MORNING  I WOKE UP DIFFERENT.....I AM DONE WITH TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHO IS WITH ME, AGAINST ME, OR WALKING DOWN THE MIDDLE BECAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO PICK A SIDE.....I AM DONE WITH ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T BRING ME PEACE......( I KNOW MY DAYS ARE NUMBERED)......I REALIZE THAT OPINIONS ARE A DIME A DOZEN, VALIDATION IS FOR PARKING YOUR CARS, AND LOYALTY  ISN'T A WORD BUT A LIFESTYLE.......I DON'T FEEL THIS WAY BECAUSE OF A MAN OR A JOB OR A NEIGHBOR OR RELATIVE.....I JUST REALIZED THAT MY LIFE US
WAY TO SHORT TO LEAVE THE KEY TO MY HAPPINESS IN SOMEONE ELSE'S POCKET!
       I HAD PLANS TO DO SO MUCH TODAY.....A LITTLE BEHIND.....DID DO TWO BATCHES OF LAUNDRY, COVER THE AIR-CONDITIONER WITH PLASTIC (STARTED SNOWING)........FINISHED BRINGING IN THE XMAS DECORATIONS ETC.....MAYBE A MOVIE AND COLOR MY HAIR TOMORROW......I HAVE ALL WEEK ALONE!