THOUGHTS ON NEW YEARS EVE........

          THIS HAPPY NEW YEAR WISH SEEMS TO BE A LITTLE UNSURE WHICH WAY TO GO.......WHICH SEEMS TO BE HE WAY THE WORLD IS TODAY.....OBAMA FIGHTING FOR HIS LAST WEEKS IN OFFICE AND TRUMP ALREADY MOVING IN.....SEEMS STRANGE.  THE WORLD IS IN A COMPLETE MESS!!!!!!
          I AM SITTING AT HOME ALONE THIS NEW YEAR'S EVE.......AS MANY OF THE PAST YEARS I HAVE......WATCHING ANDERSON COOPER AND KATHY INSULT EACH OTHER UNTIL THE BIG BALL FALLS AT NEW YEARS.......IF I CAN STAY AWAKE THAT LONG....THEN I CAN LEGALLY SAY I WATCHED THE NEW YEARS COME IN.....EVEN IF THEY ARE TWO HOURS AHEAD OF SALT LAKE!!!!
          AS I LOOK BACK OVER THIS YEAR WITH IT'S UPS AND DOWNS......GOOD AND BAD......I CAN'T REALLY COMPLAIN.....I WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH MY LITTLE SISTER TONIGHT AS I JUST FEEL LIKE I NEED SUPPORT FROM THAT PART OF MY FAMILY......I KNOW MY KIDS ARE ALL BUSY DOING THEIR THING AND DON'T NEED ME ANYMORE.......PAM DID INVITE ME TO GO WITH THEM TO ST GEORGE AND MIKE INVITED ME TO RIDE DOWN WITH HE AND ANDREA TO SEE LESLIE.......BUT TRAVELING GETS HARDER AND HARDER ......ESPECIALLY IN THIS BAD WEATHER......
SOOOO I WILL TAKE MY BAG OF POTATO CHIPS AND COKE AND GET IN BED TO WATCH THE BALL FALL.
        WE ARE ENDING THIS YEAR WITH VERY SAD NEWS......LIZ......WILLIAM'S FIANCE.....GOT THE NEWS HER FATHER HUNG HIMSELF LAST NIGHT.....SO SAD ANYONE WILL GET TO THAT POINT IN HIS LIFE......NOT THINKING OF THOSE HE LEAVES BEHIND AT THE HOLIDAY!  LOVE YOU LIZ.......
       A FEW THOUGHTS AS I LEAVE THIS YEAR.....KARRIE STILL NOT SPEAKING TO ANY OF US......SAD......I HAVE KEN LIVING WITH ME WHILE ON A SERVICE MISSION FOR THE LDS CHURCH......GOOD......I TURN A YEAR OLDER  95.....GREAT!  MY HEALTH IS GOOD AND I CAN STILL DRIVE......THANK YOU GOD!.....I HAVE A NICE HOME AND GREAT NEIGHBORS......VERY LUCKY......SO A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE  OUT THERE.......

TIME TO FOCUS ON THE NEXT 24 HRS......

AS I SAY GOOD-BYE TO 2016 ........I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT WHAT CAN HAPPEN IN A MONTH, I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN A YEAR.....MY GOAL IS TO JUST FOCUS ON THE 24 HOURS IN FRONT OF ME AND DO WHAT I CAN TO GET CLOSER TO WHERE I WANT TO BE IN THE END....

OLD PEOPLE DON'T HAVE A LOT TO LOOK FORWARD TO.....THINGS GET HARDER AND HARDER TO KEEP UP WITH......IT HURTS ALL OVER TO MOVE, TO WALK, TO STOOP AND BEND.  YOU NEED A SHOPPING BASKET TO LEAN ON TO GET THROUGH SHOPPING DAY.....YOU DON'T LIKE COLD WEATHER OR TO DRIVE ON SLICK ROADS.......YOU PREFER TO BE IN BED BY EIGHT OR NINE AND SLEEP IN. BUT......THERE IS ONE THING THAT NEVER CHANGES........YOUR LOVE OF YOUR FAMILY AND HEARING FROM OR SEEING THEM OFTEN KEEPS YOU LIVING FROM ONE DAY TO THE NEXT........OF COURSE, THEY ARE BUSY LIVING THEIR LIVES AND DON'T REALIZE YOUR NEEDS........BUT THEY TOO WILL GO THROUGH THIS SOME DAY.  TO MY FAMILY......I LOVE YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH!

LOVE ANYWAY......

NOT EVERY DAY IS A GOOD DAY.......BUT LOVE ANYWAY

NOT ALL YOU LOVE WILL LOVE YOU BACK.......LOVE ANYWAY

NOT EVERYONE WILL TELL YOU THE TRUTH.....BUT BE HONEST ANYWAY

NOT ALL DEALS ARE FAIR.....BUT PLAY FAIR ANYWAY......

SO COLD HERE TODAY......THE YEARLY INVERSION HAS SET IN.  GLAD THE PANNIERS AND HORTONS ARE IN ST GEORGE.....WARM DOWN THERE AND THE CHRISTENSONS AT PARK CITY.....ABOVE IT ALL.  I DID VENTURE OUT AN SEE A MOVIE....."LA LA LAND".....A VERY CUTE MOVIE.  THEN PATTY DROPPED BY FOR COFFEE SO HAD A GOOD DAY.....PLUS SLEPT IN TILL 8:00.

TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF 2016......IT WAS A MUCH BETTER YEAR THAN 2015, AND I'M HOPING 2017 IS EVEN BETTER.

MORE MEMORIES.......

THIS PICTURE WAS LAST YEAR'S CHRISTMAS.......WHAT A DIFFERENCE A YEAR MAKES.........RICHIE WAS NOT MARRIED AND ALEX WAS......TO LINDSAY.....WHO WALKED OUT ON HIM IN THE FALL.......YOU JUST  WISH YOUR GRANDKIDS NEVER HAD TO GO THROUGH WHAT YOU DID IN LIFE.......HE IS STRUGGLING THIS CHRISTMAS......WONDERING.....WHY?

THIS IS KARRIE, ANDREA AND ASHLEY.......KARRIE IS NOT SPEAKING TO ANY OF US THIS CHRISTMAS......ANDREA SO SO......AND RICHARD'S NEW WIFE ASHLEY I MET FOR A SECOND AT THEIR RECEPTION......I AM PROUD OF ALL OF THEM, BUT I GUESS I CAN'T REALLY CALL THEM MY FAMILY ANYMORE!

MEMORIES..........

SO TWO YEARS AGO THESE WERE THE HAPPY FACES AT THE CHRISTMAS PARTY AT PANNIERS'S.......I WAS LIVING WITH THEM THAT CHRISTMAS AS THEY REMODELED MY HOUSE AND BUILT ME A NEW ONE.....CHRISTENSON'S GOT SNOWED OUT AND DIDN'T MAKE IT.....BUT TROUBLE WAS BREWING IN THE FAMILY THAT I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT!....WISH PAM WOULD HAVE SMILED LIKE THAT WHEN SHE WAS LITTLE WITH SANTA!!!!!

COMPUTER DIDN'T COOPERATE!!!!

SO SORRY TO HAVE MISSED CHRISTMAS AND MY BLOGGING FOR THE LAST WEEK......COMPUTERS SEEM TO HAVE A MIND OF THEIR OWN AND THIS ONE WOULD NOT CONNECT TO THE INNTERNET!!!!    LAST NIGHT AT AARONS 2  YEAR BIRTHDAY PARTY WILL DID WHAT HE COULD TO ERASE THE COMPLICATIONS AND TONIGHT KENNEDY  HOOKED ME UP......THANKGOODNESS TO SMART GRANDSONS!

I SPENT CHRISTMAS EVE WITH THE PANNIERS........TIFF'S FAMILY AND WILL AND LIZ CAME AND WE MISSED NICCI AND BILL......THE CHRISTENSON'S DID THEIR THING IN VERNAL......CHRISTMAS IS JUST ANOTHER DAY AT 84 ......PRESENTS ARE FUN, BUT IT IS THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU AND CARE ARE WHAT MAKE YOUR CHRISTMAS'S GREAT......WE DID HAVE A WHITE CHRISTMAS WHICH IS GREAT.......BUT NOW IT CAN BE SPRING!......OH YES, MY SWEET SCOTTIE CAME BY WITH A GIFT, BUT KARRIE AND  RICHARD SET OUT FRONT IN THE TRUCK....OH WELL.....THEIR TIME WILL COME.  WE ARE SAD THIS HOLIDAY TO HAVE DEBBIE REYNOLDS AND HER DAUGHTER BOTH DIE......ONE DAY APART......

THANK YOU SANTA AND GOD FOR 84 CHRISTMAS'ES..........

LOOKING FORWARD.......

      AS MY CUTE MISSIONARY TOLD ME WHEN I PICKED HIM UP AT THE TRAIN STOP TONIGHT......ONLY THREE MORE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS......IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD KIDS STILL HAVE THAT  WONDERFUL FEELING ABOUT CHRISTMAS......I TALKED TO HIS MOM THIS MORNING AND IT WAS BAH-HUM-BUG FOR CHRISTMAS .....SHE HAD NOT WRAPPED ANY OF THE FAMILIES PRESENTS.....THEY HAD SCREWED UP THREE TIME ON HER CHRISTMAS CARDS....I DELIVERED MY COUSIN'S CHRISTMAS PRESENT ACROSS TOWN AND LUCILLE WAS ALSO SAYING.....LET'S JUST GET IT OVER......SHE AND GENE DON'T DRIVE ANY MORE SO THEY JUST DEPEND ON THE KIDS FOR THEIR SHOPPING, MY PRESENT.......I LOVED IT......I GOT A POUND OF FLOUR WITH A NOTE THAT SAID....." WE WANTED TO GIVE YOU A BIG POIENSETTA FLOWER BUT THIS IS ALL THE FLOUR WE COULD AFFORD!"........WE ARE NINE DAYS APART AND FRIENDS FOREVER AND I LOVED HER GIFT!!!!  YOU GOTTA HAVE THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT.......
      DARREN CAME AND PICKED UP KEN WHO WAS FLOATING AND SO HAPPY TO GO HOME FOR CHRISTMAS....I HOPE TO GET MY NEIGHBORS GIFTS OUT TOMORROW AND THEN MAYBE A MOVIE OR TWO THIS WEEKEND.....BAG HOUSE CLEANING!

AM I GOOD ENOUGH?

        "MY BELOVED  BROTHERS AND SISTERS, WE MUST STOP COMPARING OURSELVES TO OTHERS.   WE TORTURE OURSELVES NEEDLESSLY BY COMPETING AND COMPARING.....WE FALSELY JUDGE OUR SELF-WORTH BY THE THINGS WE DO OR DON'T HAVE AND BY THE OPINIONS OF OTHERS. .....IF WE MUST COMPARE. LET US COMPARE HOW WE WERE IN THE PAST TO HOW WE ARE TODAY-----AND EVEN TO HOW WE WANT TO BE IN THE FUTURE.THE ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS "AM I GOOD ENOUGH?" AND " WILL I MAKE IT?" ARE "YES! YOU ARE GOING TO BE GOOD ENOUGH" AND "YES, YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT AS LONG AS YOU KEEP- REPENTING AND DO NOT RATIONALIZE OR REBEL"  THE GOD IN HEAVEN IS NOT A HEARTLESS REFEREE LOOKING FOR ANY EXCUSE TO THROW US OUT OF THE GAME......PLEASE BELIEVE , AND PLEASE TAKE HOPE AND COMFORT FROM, THIS ETERNAL TRUTH.  OUR HEAVENLY FATHER INTENDS FOR US TO MAKE IT!  THIS IS HIS WORK AND HIS GLORY.".......ELDER J. DEVN  CORNISH
          I JUST PRAY THAT SOMEDAY I WILL KNOW WHAT I DID THAT MADE MY ONE DAUGHTER'S FAMILY HATE ME....... CAN I BE FORGIVEN.....?.

TIME TICKS BY.......

             
      I DON'T ASK WHY........I JUST ACCEPT THAT 84 AND A HALF YEARS HAVE TAKEN THEIR TOLE ON MY BODY.......IT HAS BEEN A GOOD BODY AND SERVED ME WELL.....YES, MY KNEES ARE BAD AND I HAVE BAD FEET......BUT IF YOU CAN IMAGINE THE MILES THESE LEGS AND FEET HAVE WALKED AROUND THE WORLD AND THE MILES I HAVE DANCED......WHICH WAS A LOVE OF MY LIFE!  WHEN BEING THIN AND AGILE WAS NECESSARY.....I WAS.  I RAISED THREE DARLING DAUGHTERS AND WAS THERE THROUGH THE LIVES OF MOST OF MY NINE GRAND KIDS.....CHASING, CHANGING, CHALLENGING THEM AS THEY GREW UP.....YES, NOW I HURT ALL OVER MOST THE TIME AND I AM DEFINITELY SLOWING DOWN........ESPECIALLY IN THIS COLD WEATHER.....BUT I HAVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT!......AND I AM PROUD OF THAT!  MY POOR HANDS HAVE BIG LIVER SPOTS AND CANCER SCARES BUT I AM STILL KNITTING BABY AFIGANS AND EMBROIDERING QUILT BLOCKS!!!!!AND HUGGING THE PEOPLE I LOVE.  THANK YOU GOD FOR MY HANDS.....

DEAR SANTA........

AT 84.....WOULDN'T IT BE NICE IF WE STILL BELIEVED IN SANTA AND COULD GET A MAKE-OVER WITH JUST A LETTER AND A WISH?...I FIND WISHING ON A STAR DOESN'T HELP EITHER.....SO I AM JUST GOING TO BE THANKFUL FOR THE ONE I HAVE AND COVER IT UP WITH BIG CLOTHES........WHICH ISN'T HARD IN THIS FREEZING WEATHER WE ARE HAVING.

I WISH I COULD SAY I WAS A PEACE .....BUT SO MUCH STRIFE IN THE WORLD AND POLITICS HAS GOTTEN OUT OF HAND.......MY FAMILY IS IN DISARAY AND I MISS THE THREE GRANDCHILDREN THAT ARE NO LONGER IN MY LIFE AT THIS TIME.....MY SWEET LITTLE DOG WHO IS FOURTEEN AND A HALF ISN'T DOING WELL AND I HOPE SHE JUST GOES TO SLEEP AND DOESN'T WAKE UP WHEN HER TIME COMES AND ISN'T IN PAIN......I WILL MISS HER SO.

I MISS WRITING IN MY BLOG EVERY DAY AS I HAVE IN THE PAST BUT HAVE BEEN IN A DIFFERENT MIND-SET OF LATE AND WRITING DOESN'T JUST FLOW AS IT USE TO, HOPE IT IS JUST THE SEASON.....I DUG OUT "MOMMA TEDDY"......THAT MY MOTHER MADE ME FOR CHRISTMAS 75 YEARS AGO AND TOLD THE GRANDKIDS HER STORY AT OUR PARTY.....FOR SOME REASON IT HAS MADE ME SO HOMESICK FOR MOM AND DAD AND MY LIFE OF YESTERDAY.....

DARREN ASKED ME TO SPEND CHRISTMAS WITH THEM AND PAM INSISTS I SPEND CHRISTMAS NIGHT AFTER DINNER WITH THEM.....SO GREAT TO BE LOVED.

UGLY SWEATER CHRISTMAS PARTY......

YES .......YOU CAN'T KEEP A GOOD FAMILY DOWN.......I WAS READY TO CANCEL THE ANNUAL CHRISTMAS PARTY BECAUSE THE COOKS ARE ACTING POOPY AND DON'T SPEAK TO ME......OR MOST THE FAMILY......JUST AS I WAS BEGINNING TO FEEL LIKE A FAILURE THE OTHER TWO GIRLS STEPPED IN AND SAID......."WHO NEEDS THEM TO HAVE A FAMILY CHRISTMAS PARTY".......AND THE PARTY WAS ON.   LAST SUNDAY 1 4 OF MY DARLING FAMILY GATHERED AROUND THE TABLE FOR DINNER IN THEIR "UGLY CHRISTMAS" SWEATERS........SCOTT WON THE PRIZE BUT ROB'S AND LIZ'S WERE NECK AND NECK, FUN PEOPLE, GOOD FOOD AND PRESENTS  MADE OUR EVENING A GREAT TIME......AND THE FROSTING WAS OUR 2 YEAR OLD AARON....EVERY FAMILY NEEDS A BABY! DID WE MISS THE COOKS?   I DON'T THINK SO!....ALREADY PLANNING ANOTHER UGLY SWEATER PARTY FOR CHRISTMAS NEXT YEAR.......and I plan to still be here..........

WISH I HAD WRITTEN THIS......

MY TWENTIES WERE WONDERFUL......COLLEGE, WORKING IN DENVER AT BURKHARDT STEEL COMPANY, SUMMERS AT SUMMER RESORTS LIKE MESA VERDE NATIONAL PARK AND ESTES PARK, COLORADO AS A WAITRESS FOR MONEY FOR COLLEGE.......THEN BEING A STEWARDESS AT 21......NOT A WORRY IN MY 20'S....BUT.....THEN MARRIAGE AND A BABY ETC. AND THINGS CHANGE!  I LOVE THE FOLLOWING PIECE FROM FACEBOOK........

"A STRONG WOMAN KNOWS THAT BEING STRONG IS NOT AN OPTION FOR HER......IT IS A NECESSITY.....SO EVERY DAY SHE WAKES UP AND MEETS HE WORLD AND ALL IT'S CHALLENGES HEAD ON......BUT SOMETIMES AT THE END OF THE DAY, WHEN ALL IS DONE AND SHE FINALLY CLOSES THE DOOR ........SHE CRIES, NOT BECAUSE SHE IS WEAK, BUT BECAUSE IT IS HARD BEING STRONG, DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY, (I AM  SO GLAD TO KNOW IT ISN'T BECAUSE I AM WEAK BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED BARRELS OVER KARRIE THIS LAST YEAR....BUT KNOW I HAVE TO GO ON) ......KNOWING THAT IF YOU DON'T DO IT, NO ONE WILL.  THE SOFT CRIES THAT MOST NEVER HEAR WILL SOFTLY DISAPPEAR AS THE NEW DAY COMES AND YOU RISE ONCE AGAIN TO BE THE BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, CONFIDENT WOMAN YOU ARE."

I AM THANKFUL I CAN BE THIS PERSON.....I MUST BE THERE TO SEE KEN THROUGH HIS TWO YEAR SERVICE MISSION FOR THE CHURCH AND WORK WITH HIM EVERY NIGHT ON HIS EXERCISES IN THIS NEW "BRAINCHANGE" PROGRAM HIS FOLKS AND OTHER GRANDMA SIGNED HIM UP FOR.....PRESUMING I CAN DO IT...........WE NEVER KNOW WHEN AND WHERE WE WILL BE CALLED  TO STEP UP AND BE STRONG!!!........AND I CAN AND WILL DO IT.

BLESS ALL THE WOMEN WHO PROVE THEY ARE STRONG WOMEN........DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY!..

COFFEE TIME AT MY HOUSE........

I KNOW SOME OF MY FAMILY CANNOT UNDERSTAND MY COFFEE THING.......BUT WHEN YOU ARE HEADING FOR 85.....SINGLE......DON'T GO OUT AT NIGHT MUCH...... NOR BELONG TO FANCY CLUBS.......WHY DO THEY FROWN ON A CUP OF COFFEE EACH MORNING......ONE OF THE SIMPLE PLEASURE LEFT TO YOU........AND WHEN YOUR GOOD FRIEND DROPS BY ABOUT THREE AND YOU CAN SHARE YOUR DAYS WITH EACH OTHER OVER A CUP OF COFFEE......IS THAT REALLY BAD????  I AM TRYING  TO UNDERSTAND WHY......

FRANTIC DAY......TRYING TO GET READY FOR THE FAMILY CHRISTMAS PARTY ON SUNDAY.....HAD A DOZEN THINGS TO DO TODAY BUT THE WEATHER TOOK OVER AND I GAVE UP AND CAME HOME........MUCH TO DO TOMORROW.   THE BOYS LEFT FOR VERNAL LAST NIGHT TO BEAT THE STORM SO LEFT WITH MUCH TO DO......PICK UP ICE......GROCERY SHOP......DOB.....THEN START PUTTING THINGS TOGETHER.......ALSO A LITTLE DUSTING AND VACUMNING.........I GUESS IT WILL HAPPEN WHETHER I AM READY OR NOT!  GOT A DARN GOOD SNOW STORM TODAY......TALKED TO PAM, SHERRIE AND LES AND THAT ALWAYS MAKES MY DAY.

CHOOSE CAREFULLY,,,,,,,,

YOU KNOW .......THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING TO BE GRATEFUL FOR....AND I FOUND ANOTHER ONE TODAY!

I AM TOO OLD TO DIE YOUNG.......ONE WORRY I CAN CROSS OFF MY STRESS LIST

I GET SO TIRED OF HEARING PEOPLE COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS IN THEIR LIVES WHAT THEY DON'T REALIZE IS THEY ARE WHERE THEY ARE BECAUSE OF THE CHOICES THEY HAVE MADE OR ARE MAKING......

EVERYTHING YOU DO IS BASED ON THE CHOICES YOU MAKE......IT'S NOT YOUR PARENTS, YOUR PAST RELATIONSHIPS, YOUR JOB, THE ECONOMY, THE WEATHER, AN ARGUMENT, OR YOUR AGE THAT IS TO BLAME.......YOU AND ONLY YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERY DECISION AND CHOICE YOU MAKE......"PERIOD"!.

OUR FAMILY CHRISTMAS PARTY IS SUNDAY AND I HOPE I AM READY FOR IT..

LIFE IS FRAGILE......

TIME FLYING AND ONLY 12 MORE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS.......GOT A "TO DO" LIST A MILE LONG......SPENT THE MORNING WAITING FOR RELIEF SOCIETY TEACHERS THAT NEVER SHOWED UP.....THEN JUST AS I WAS LEAVING MY FRIEND PATTY DROPPED BY FOR AN HOUR......SOOOOO THEN FINALLY TO THE STORE ......HOME AND TRIMMED GIGI, DID LAUNDRY, TIED THE NEW QUILT I AM MAKING FOR AARON FOR CHRISTMAS PARTY SUNDAY.   

DINNER IS OVER BUT I STILL HAVE TO HELP KEN WITH HIS SCRIPTURES AND THE NEW BRAIN TRAINING PROGRAM HIS FOLKS JUST PUT HIM IN.....BY NINE MY ACHING JOINTS LOOK FORWARD TO FALLING INTO BED.....TO HOPEFULLY FACE ANOTHER BUSY DAY TOMORROW.......SUPPOSE TO GET  A SNOW STORM TONIGHT.......BUT MAYBE IT WILL HEAD FOR THE HILLS TO DUMP IT'S LOAD..

GOOD NEWS........

ANOTHER FUN DAY WITH THE LADIES AT THE COTTONWOOD CLUB.....DIDN'T WIN AT BRIDGE.......BUT HAD A GOOD VISIT!

TODAY IS PEARL HARBOR DAY......75 YEARS AGO THE JAPANESE BOMBED PEARL HARBOR AND WW2 STARTED......I WAS 9 YEARS OLD.  HISTORY........

I TOOK A QUIZZ ON FACEBOOK CHOOSING COLORS AND PICTURES AND THE RESULT WAS .....MY MOST DOMINATE PERSONALITY TRAIT....."WISDOM"......IT SAID I APPROACHED SITUATIONS AND CHALLENGES WITH A LEVEL HEAD AND USE LOGIC  WHEN MAKING DECISIONS.  MY MANY EXPERIENCES IN LIFE HAVE MADE ME AN INTELLIGENT AND PRACTICAL INDIVIDUAL.......YEP, THAT'S ME.

STORM MOVING IN......AND TO ALL YOU THAT ARE PRAYING FOR A BLIZZARD.......PLEASE GO TO THE DAIRY QUEEN!

GETTING OLDER.......

EVERY DAY FINDS ME JUST A LITTLE BIT OLDER........SO GLAD TO SEE SHERRIE AND THE BOYS THIS MORNING.......NICE TO HAVE GREG BACK WITH US AND HE IS SO CUTE.....KEN WAS HAPPY TO SEE ME ALSO......SHERRIE SAID HE DIDN'T WANT TO STAY AT THE HOTEL LAST NIGHT.......JUST GO HOME TO GRANDMA'S HOUSE .......AT MIDNITE......SO GLAD HE LOVES IT HERE.  WE ARE STARTING A NEW PROGRAM FOR HIS STUTTERING......HOPE IT HELPS.   PAM WILL BE HOME MONDAY ......

I WAS READING WHERE QUALITY TIME HELPS LOVED ONES LIVE LONGER.....YES......YOU NEED TO VISIT YOUR ELDERLY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS......A UNIVERSITY STUDY OF TORONTO SAYS IT MAY EXTEND THEIR LIFE!   THE STUDY FOUND OLDER ADULTS WHO HAVE REGULAR CONTACT WITH FAMILY MEMBERS ARE MOST LIKELY TO LIVE PAST THEIR 80's.  CLOSE RELATIONSHIPS WITH FAMILY MEMBERS MAY LEAD TO POSITIVE CHANGES IN THE BRAIN CHANGING CHEMICALS AND HARMONS THAT HELP ELDERLY FOLKS 

STAY HEALTHIER LONGER.......I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT......WE NEED TO FEEL LOVED AND NEEDED......WHICH IS WHY WE HAD OUR CHILDREN MANY YEARS AGO.....EVERYONE NEEDS FAMILY.

BE THANKFUL FOR TODAY......

         I AM VERY THANKFUL FOR TODAY......AT  MY AGE I CAN'T BE PICKY.....I AM JUST GOING TO TAKE ANY DAY GOD DECIDES TO PUT HERE IN SALT LAKE CITY UTAH AND ENJOY IT!  IT WAS SUNNY BUT FREEZING COLD......I DID GO TO A MOVIE, GO WATER PAM'S PLANTS AND GO GROCERY SHOPPING......GOT TO BRAVE THE COLD IT IS HERE TO STAY AWHILE.....
         "YOU FAIL.....YOU WIN.....YOU MAKE MISTAKES, YOU LIVE AND YOU LEARN....YOU'RE HUMAN, NOT PERFECT.  YOU HAVE BEEN HURT BUT YOU ARE ALIVE....THINK OF WHAT  A PRECIOUS PRIVILEGE   IT IS TO BE ALIVE.....TO BREATH.....TO THINK.....TO ENJOY AND TO CHASE THE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE.....SOMETIMES THERE IS SADNESS IN OUR JOURNEY, BUT THERE IS ALSO A LOT OF BEAUTY......WE MUST KEEP PUTTING ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER EVEN WHEN WE HURT, FOR WE WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IS WAITING FOR US JUST AROUND THE BEND,"  author unknown
               AND SO TODAY ENDS THE MONTH OF NOVEMBER AND NOW WE ARE LOOKING AT 24 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!

WINTER.....UGH......

WOKE UP TO SNOW AGAIN THIS MORNING......BUT ONE LOOK AT A PICTURE OF MY GREAT-GRANDSON MADE THE SUN COME OUT AT MY HOUSE!  HERE IS MY AARON AT THE AQUARIUM WITH GRAN AND GRAMPS PANNIER.  COULD JUST EAT HIM UP.

ABOUT THIS TIME EVERY YEAR.......LATELY.......I JUST WANT TO BE OUT OF THE COLD AND SNOW ......SO IF I COULD JUST HAVE SOMEONE DO AS A POEM OF SHEL SILVERSTEIN'S SUGGESTS:

MAIL ME SOMEWHERE

JUST MAIL ME SOMEWHERE

WRAP ME UP AND PACK ME AND

MAIL ME SOMEWHERE......

PARCEL POST, UPS, REGULAR MAIL OR AIR

ALL WRAPPED UP IN BROWN PAPER

THAT WON'T RIP OR TEAR

WITH STAMPS ON MY FOREHEAD AND

STRING IN MY HAIR

AND A TAG ON MY BUTT THAT SAYS

"HANDLE WITH CARE"

PASTE ON ANY ADDRESS,

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE

HAWAII OR MEXICO BUT NOT DELAWARE

CAUSE WHEREVER IT IS 

I"LL BE HAPPY THERE.......

SO PLEASE SHIP ME-----SEND ME----

MAIL ME SOMEWHERE!

WOKE UP ONE MORNING.....

        LIFE IS NOT FAIR.......I WAKE UP EVERY MORNING.......AND AM I AT THE BEACH IN ST. THOMAS WITH MY CHRISTENSON FAMILY.......NO....... I AM IN MY OWN LITTLE BED AND IT IS SNOWING OUTSIDE!  SHERRIE JUST CALLED AND SAID SHE WAS KEEPING KEN AND BRAYDEN DOWN THERE UNTIL FRIDAY WHEN THEY COME HOME......THEY WERE TO ARRIVE WEDNESDAY AND GET BACK TO SCHOOL AND MISSIONARY WORK! GOOD FOR THEM......A FAMILY VACATION WITH EVERYONE TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOUR YEARS BECAUSE THE TWO OLDER ONES WERE ALWAYS AWAY ON A MISSION......IS SOMETHING TO ENJOY.......
                                                     BUT........
      ONE MORNING  I WOKE UP DIFFERENT.....I AM DONE WITH TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHO IS WITH ME, AGAINST ME, OR WALKING DOWN THE MIDDLE BECAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO PICK A SIDE.....I AM DONE WITH ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T BRING ME PEACE......( I KNOW MY DAYS ARE NUMBERED)......I REALIZE THAT OPINIONS ARE A DIME A DOZEN, VALIDATION IS FOR PARKING YOUR CARS, AND LOYALTY  ISN'T A WORD BUT A LIFESTYLE.......I DON'T FEEL THIS WAY BECAUSE OF A MAN OR A JOB OR A NEIGHBOR OR RELATIVE.....I JUST REALIZED THAT MY LIFE US
WAY TO SHORT TO LEAVE THE KEY TO MY HAPPINESS IN SOMEONE ELSE'S POCKET!
       I HAD PLANS TO DO SO MUCH TODAY.....A LITTLE BEHIND.....DID DO TWO BATCHES OF LAUNDRY, COVER THE AIR-CONDITIONER WITH PLASTIC (STARTED SNOWING)........FINISHED BRINGING IN THE XMAS DECORATIONS ETC.....MAYBE A MOVIE AND COLOR MY HAIR TOMORROW......I HAVE ALL WEEK ALONE!

WHY BLOG......OR JUST WRITE?

I LIKE TO THINK I AM NOT NORMAL.......I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SOMEONE WHO WANTED TO TRY NEW THINGS .....JUST TO SEE IF I CAN DO THEM......OR GO SOMEWHERE NOT EVERYONE HEADS FOR ON A VACATION......LIKE THE CHANNEL ISLANDS, RORATONGA, CAMBODIA OR TAZMANIA........

I HAVE DISCOVERED I LOVE TO WRITE....BUT LIKE ALL WRITERS THERE ARE JUST SOME DAYS WORDS ARE HARD TO FIND OR PUT DOWN SO .......AND SO YOU THINK WHY WRITE?  

ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS HOLD A PEN......PICK A WORD ......AND SEE WHERE IT TAKES YOU.   BECAUSE WE STORE EVERYTHING IN OUR BODY;......THE GORGEOUS, UGLY, THE PAINFUL THE ESTATIC, ETC.....IT IS ALL STORED IN OUR CELLS WHERE MEMORY, TENSION AND CONFUSION REMAIN DAY AFTER DAY, WAITING TO BE SET FREE. WE DON'T HAVE TO SHOW OUR WRITING TO AN AUDIENCE, FAMILY OR ANYONE BUT WHEN IT IS WRITTEN DOWN AS A LIST, AS A PARAGRAPH OR POEM OR STORY......WE CAN FACE THE WORLD WITH A GREATER UNDERSTANDING OF OUR SELF IN THIS WORLD.....AND  AT THE VERY LEAST YOU KNOW ALL THOSE THINGS ARE OUT OF YOUR BODY......WRITING IS A WAY OF ESSENTIALLY BECOMING FREE!!!IT ALL BEGINS WITH A WORD!!!!!.

HAPPY THANKSGVING

YES IT WAS........HAD A GREAT TURKEY DINNER WITH ROB AND PAM.......ROB ORDERED "MARIE CALENDAR'S" AND WE DIDN'T HAVE TO DRESS UP FANCY OR FACE ANY CROWDS TO ENJOY THE TURKEY!!!!

THE CHRISTENSONS SPENT WEDNESDAY NIGHT WITH ME......THEN WE WERE UP AT FIVE TO GET THEM OFF ON THEIR TRIP TO ST. THOMAS FOR THE HOLIDAY......EVERYONE EXCITED ABOUT HEADING FOR THE BEACH AND WARM WEATHER.......HAD OUR FIRST BIG SNOW STORM WEDNESDAY NIGHT.

DON'T KNOW WHERE LAST WEEK WENT BUT DIDN'T GET TO THE BLOG OR COMPUTER.......WHICH ISN'T GOOD.

PAM AND ROB LEAVE TOMORROW FOR ARGENTINA AND A TEN DAY FISHING TRIP......BREE IS STAYING WITH ME.......TODAY I AM STARTING MY CHRISTMAS DECORATING......GOT THE TREE UP AND AM READY TO MOVE TO THE REST OF THE HOUSE.......THIRTY-ONE DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!

November.....November......November......

AS BAD AS I HATED TO SEE NOVEMBER ARRIVE......IT TOOK IT TILL THE 15TH OR SO TO ACT LIKE WINTER......BUT THE COLD WEATHER AND A LITTLE SNOW HAS SHOWN US WINTER IS HERE.......

YESTERDAY RUTH AND PATTY BROUGHT LUNCH IN ABOUT NOON AND STAYED TILL 5:00.....I LOVE PEOPLE TO FEEL THEY CAN BE THEMSELVES AT MY HOME......RUTH AND I ARE FOR TRUMP AND ARE MORMON......SO WE KINDA GIVE PATTY A HARD TIME WHO IS LUTHERAN AND FOR HILAREY.........BUT THESE DIFFERENCES DO  NOT AFFECT HOW WE FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER.....IN FACT GIVE US SOMETHING TO CHEW ON!!!.  SHERRIE HAD DROPPED BY TO PICK UP KEN AND TAKE HIM TO VERNAL LAST NIGHT AND ENJOYED VISITING WITH THEM A FEW MINUTES......THEY REMEMBER HER AS A LITTLE GIRL ON "LAURI KAY DRIVE".......WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS A LONG TIME.

SHERRIE CAME IN BECAUSE HER FATHER HAD ANOTHER SPLINT PUT IN HIS HEART AND THEY NICKED A BLOOD  VESSEL THEY COULD NOT STOP THE BLEEDING AND HIS ARM TURNED BLACK ETC......KINDA A WORRY FOR AWHILE.....BUT HE ENDED UP GOING HOME YESTERDAY .......SO GUESS HE IS BETTER....I ONLY HEAR IT ALL SECOND HAND!!!!!!!

BRAY CALLED THEY WOULD BE HOME TONIGHT  LATE AND HE AND HIS CUTE FRIEND TAYLOR AND HIS WIFE WANT TO COME TO MY HOUSE AFTER CHURCH TOMORROW AND COOK A TURKEY DINNER AND PLAY MEXICAN TRAIN.......(I HAVE THEM HOOKED!) SO I GUESS IT WILL BE PARTY TIME AFTER CHURCH TOMORROW.......I AM SO HAPPY THEY WANT TO BE WITH ME.........

KINDA HAPPY ALEX AND AUBREY HAVE BROKEN UP?????  TOO SOON AFTER HIS DIVORCE........

WHY? JUST TO LIVE AND BE HAPPY......

       KINDA FUNNY HOW A FEW YEARS CAN CHANGE YOUR THINKING!!!!!!
I LOVE PEOPLE THAT KNOW WHAT THEY WANT AND STICK TO IT.....LIKE THE PEOPLE OF CHERNOBYL........WHEN THE NUCLEAR REACTOR BLEW UP THEIR HOMES WERE CONDEMNED AND THEY WERE MOVED OUT.......BUT.....A SMALL HANDFUL OF TOUGH PEASANTS DEFIANTLY SNEAKED BACK TO THEIR CONTAMINATED ANCESTRAL HOMELAND......THEY DID IT BECAUSE IT WAS HOME AND THEY LIKED IT AND IT WAS HOME.......WAS IT SAFE?  OF COURSE NOT!.....BUT HANNA HAS BEEN THROUGH FAMINE, WORLD WAR II, AN ATOMIC MELTDOWN AND AGING ITSELF.....WHAT DOES SAFE MEAN ANYWAY TO HER?  HANNA DRINKS THE CONTAMINATED WATER....PLANTS HER GARDEN IN THE POISONED SOIL, MAKES HER OWN MOON SHINE, LAUGHS ABOUT LIFE AND THEN GOES OUTSIDE TO BUTCHER ANOTHER RADIOACTIVE PIG TO MAKE RADIOACTIVE SAUSAGE.........
       WHY ARE THESE TOUGH OLD CRONES THRIVING?  BECAUSE THEY ARE HAPPY!
       AND WHY ARE THEY HAPPY?    BECAUSE THEY DO EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANT TO DO........WHAT IS A CRONE.....SHE IS OFTEN A GUARDIAN OF THE UNDERWORLD BECAUSE SHE HAS NO FEAR OF DEATH----WHICH MEANS, OF COURSE, SHE HAS NO FEAR OF ANYTHING.
       WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY THAT FETISHIZIES YOUTH......IN FACT WE LIVE IN A CULTURE WHERE STAYING YOUNG IS CONSIDERED A REAL ACCOMPLISHMENT....BUT I AM LOSING INTEREST (IF I EVER HAD ANY) IN BEING 21 FOREVER.....THE ANSWER TO ALL THIS IS LIVE......LIVE EVERY MOMENT AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST....YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL BE..

RECONNECTING......

YES .......I AM OLD......AND NO I AM NOT DEAD YET.......SO QUIET TREATING ME LIKE I AM........

RECONNECTING WITH YOUR INNER CHILD IS A TERRIFIC THERAPEUTIC PRACTICE, WHETHER YOU HAVE OLD WOUNDS TO HEAL OR YOU DO NOT WANT TO OPEN NEW ONES.......TODAY SHERRIE CAME FLYING IN TO SEE DON......WHO JUST HAD ANOTHER STINT PUT IN HIS HEART.....A BLOOD VESSEL WAS NICKED AND THEY COULD NOT STOP THE BLEEDING WHICH WAS PRETTY SCAREY TO THE KIDS......ANYWAY THEY STOPPED THE BLEEDING AND HE WENT HOME..........SOOOOO.    SHE TOOK KEN BACK TO VERNAL WITH HER AND BRAY WILL BRING HIM HOME TOMORROW FOR CHURCH SUNDAY.  SO NICE TO SEE SHERRIE AND .......I CAN SLEEP IN TOMORROW!!!!!

PATTY AND RUTH BROUGHT LUNCH IN TODAY .......ARRIVED AT 12;00....LEFT AT 5;00......I AM GLAD THEY FEEL AT HOME HERE.......AND WE GOT ALL THE TROUBLES OF THE WORLD SETTLED.

BEEN A BUSY WEEK......TUESDAY, RELIEF SOCIETY TEACHERS AND MOVIE WITH ROB, WEDNESDAY BRIDGE....YESTERDAY SAT IN INSTA CARE FOR HOURS TO SEE ABOUT MY EAR......HAVE FLUID ON IT AND ON  AN ANTIBIOTIC.....COLD, COLD HERE.......AND 38 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!

SUCK IT UP CUPCAKE........

HAPPY CHURCH DAY........ENJOYED THE PRIMARY'S PROGRAM TODAY.........BUT

TO ALL YOU YOUNG PEOPLE WHO ARE USE TO ALWAYS GETTING THINGS YOUR WAY.........AND CANNOT BELIEVE YOUR DEMO CANDIDATE DID NOT WIN AND ARE FURIOUS WITH AMERICA.......WELL I SAY "SUCK IT UP CUPCAKE".......GROW UP AND FACE THE FACT LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS FAIR!  I KNOW........BECAUSE EIGHT YEARS AGO WHEN OBAMA BEAT ROMNEY.......I WENT THROUGH JUST WHAT ALL OF YOU ARE, BUT I DIDN'T CRY, RUN UP AND DOWN THE STREET CARRYING A SIGN PROTESTING, IF THAT IS HOW YOU HANDLE THINGS IN YOUR LIFE......I AM GLAD I AM NOT IN YOUR LIFE!  I CAN TELL YOU FOR SURE.......WHAT GOES ROUND.....COMES ROUND AND I AM ON CLOUD NINE TODAY WITH TRUMP WINNING!!!!!

ENJOYED A FUN SATURDAY NIGHT WITH THE BOYS AND TWO OF BRAY'S FRIENDS......TAYLOR AND COLLET.......GREAT GAME OF MEXICAN TRAIN WITH PIZZA AND CHEESE AND CRACKERS ON THE SIDE!

CRAP........

THIS I KNOW.......

WE JUST GOT A NEW PRESIDENT.......ALMOST ANOTHER YEAR IS HERE AND  I WILL TRY TO BE A BETTER ME.......

I WILL TRY TO LIVE BENEATH MY MEANS....RETURN EVERYTHING I BORROW........STOP BLAMING OTHER PEOPLE....ADMIT IT WHEN I MAKE A MISTAKE.....DO SOMETHING NICE AND TRY  NOT GET CAUGHT......LISTEN MORE AND TALK LESS.......STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE NOT PERFECTION......BE ON TIME.......DO NOT MAKE EXCUSES......DON'T ARGUE......GET ORGANIZED......BE KIND TO ALL PEOPLE.....LET SOMEONE CUT AHEAD OF ME IN LINE AND TAKE TIME TO BE ALONE.....CULTIVATE GOOD MANNERS....BE HUMBLE.......REALIZE AND ACCEPT THAT LIFE IS NOT FAIR......KNOW WHEN TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT.......GO AN ENTIRE DAY WITHOUT CRITICIZING ANYONE.....LEARN FROM THE PAST.......PLAN FOR THE FUTURE.....LIVE IN THE PRESENT......DO NOT SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF.....AND IT'S ALL SMALL STUFF!

THIS IS SORTA  A "NEW YEARS RESOLUTION".......OR NOT.

SOME OF MY FAMILY NEED TO READ THE PART ......"GOING AROUND DESTROYIING

TWO DAYS AFTER THE ELECTION......

                     I AM STILL ON CLOUD NINE.......TRUMP BEAT HILLARY!!!!!
     IT IS LIKE A WHOLE NEW WORLD HAS OPENED UP FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS AND MAYBE A GOOD FUTURE FOR MY 9 GRANDCHILDREN........SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORLD OUT THERE.......SPENT MOST OF THE PAST TWO DAY REVELING IN OUR VICTORY.......PATTY DID COME OVER FOR COFFEE TODAY......SHE WAS FOR HILLARY AND ALL THE FREE-BES SHE WAS GETTING FROM OBAMA.......SO I DIDN'T RUB IT IN!!!  I LOVE HER TOO MUCH AND AM SO GLAD I AM NOT IN HER SHOES.......SHERRIE CALLED HAD COME IN TO DRIVE A CAR BACK TO VERNAL THEY HAD BOUGHT AT THE AUCTION......HAD HAD LUNCH WITH KEN.....WHICH WAS GOOD......BUT NO TIME FOR A SHORT VISIT WITH MOM......SUCK IT UP CUPCAKE......YOU ARE NOT A PRIORITY IN YOUR CHILDREN'S LIFE WHEN THEY GROW UP.......PAM IS FINDING THAT OUT!.......... BUT THEN AGAIN.......... I HAVEN'T SEEN PAM FOR TWO WEEKS AND SHE LIVES 10 MINUTES FROM ME.....OH WELL.......WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!!!!!

THANK YOU GOD........

OH YES......I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES AND IN PRAYERS BEING ANSWERED!!!   I COULD NOT WATCH ANY OF THE VOTING ALL DAY.......AND JUST KNEW HILLARY WAS GOING TO WIN ACCORDING TO ALL THE POLES......AND IT WAS BREAKING MY HEART.....IT WOULD JUST BE ANOTHER TERM OF OBAMA......AND I WAS SO LOOKING FORWARD TO LIVING LONG ENOUGH TO SEE HIM LEAVE OFFICE.....HE WAS A DISASTER......AND SOMEONE GETTING OUR COUNTRY BACK ON TRACK WITH  A DECENT HEALTH PROGRAM......BUILDING UP OUR MILITARY AGAIN.......MAKING FRIENDS WITH THE COUNTRIES OF THE WORLD AND GETTING RID OF ISISES WAS NEEDED......I  DIDN'T THINK BILLY BOY WOULD MAKE A VERY GLAMOROUS "FIRST LADY"......AND HAVE ALWAYS HAD THE QUESTION FOR HILLARY????DO YOU OWN A DRESS?

AND THEN......AND THEN......

I WOKE UP WEDNESDAY MORNING TO FOX GREETING  THE WORLD THAT TRUMP WAS OUR NEW PRESIDENT!!!!

I AM SORRY FOR YOU LOSERS.......BECAUSE I REMEMBER HOW I FELT WHEN ROMNEY LOST.....BUT SUCK IT UP CUPCAKE.......THE REPUBLICANS ARE ON THE MOVE......

TURN BACK THE CLOCK.......

TWO GOOD MESSAGES IN ONE.......I DID TURN BACK ALL MY CLOCKS, THAT IS BRAYDEN HELPED ME......AND I HAVE TURNED BACK TAKING THE COUNTRY BACK TOMORROW TO THE UNIVERSE AND GOD!!!!!!BUT IF GOD HEARS MY PRAYERS HE WILL LET HILLARY LOSE.........BUT IF NOT.....ANOTHER FOUR YEARS OF OBAMA.......IT HAS BEEN A LONG MISERABLE UP AND DOWN ELECTION THIS YEAR.......ONE MORE DAY.

BUSY WEEKEND WITH THE BOYS......SATURDAY KEN AND I HIT WALMART IN THE AM AND THEN BRAYDEN JOINED IN THE AFTERNOON FOR A MOVIE......YESTERDAY CHURCH THEN DINNER, MOVIE AND GAME OF MEXICAN TRAIN WITH THE TWO BOYS AND BRAYDEN'S FRIEND TAYLOR........DEAD TIRED LAST NIGHT.......DIDN'T GET MUCH DONE TODAY, TONIGHT MY DANCING WITH THE STARS.

TOMORROW IS VOTING DAY AND A DERMATALIGIST APPOINTMENT.....NOT TO EXCITING.

MORE RELATIVES.......

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WHY......WHY WE SAY A COUPLE OF TIMES A YEAR CAN'T WE JUST FIND A TIME THAT FITS OUR STATE AND STICK WITH IT???????  TONIGHT WE SET OUR CLOCKS BACK AN HOUR.....GOOD ONE MORE HOUR SLEEP BEFORE CHURCH IN THE MORNING......BUT TRY AND TELL YOUR BODY THAT FOR A WEEK OR SO.....OR THE DOG WHO IS USE TO PEEING A 6:30?  OH WELL.....IT IS WHAT IT IS.

KEN AND I WENT SHOPPING THIS MORNING.....THEN BRAY CAME OVER AND WE WENT TO THE MOVIE AN D HOME FOR HAM FRIED RICE......BRAYDEN WAS OFF TO THE LITTLE AIRPORT TO PICK UP A LICENSE PLATE FOR HIS DAD.......ALWAYS SOMETHING ON HIS TODO LIST FOR DAD.....THEN HOME WORK.   THEY ARE OFF TO THE SINGLES WARD TOMORROW AND A PIANO CONCERT ON TEMPLE SQUARE FOR THE SINGLES STAKE......USE TO GOING TO CHURCH ALONE.......AND ANOTHER WEEKEND FLYS BY.

COUNTING THE DAYS.......TWO MORE......TILL WE VOTE AND GET THIS TERRIBLE NONSENSE OF TRUMP AND HILLARY ALL DAY ON EVERY CHANNELS TO END.

GENEOLOGY........

THESE ARE THE COUSINS......SIGNIFICANT OTHERS AND THE SECOND COUSINS OF MY UNCLE FRED AND AUNT JANE.......AUNT JANE GREW UP NEXT DOOR TO ME....SHE WAS QUITE  BIT OLDER THAN I WAS.....BUT GAVE ME MANY OF HER OLD CLOTHES.....I ESPECIALLY LOVED THE FORMALS SHE PASSED ON DOWN TO ME!!!!  DAD'S BROTHER FRED CAME TO VISIT US AND FELL IN LOVE WITH HER.......THEY LIVED IN CALIF AND HAD SEVEN KIDS......I KNEW THE THREE OLDEST......RICHARD, ROBERT AND FREDA LOUISE........SHE ALSO HAD TWO BOYS AND TWO GIRLS I NEVER KNEW .  BOB LIVED WITH US FOR TWO YEARS AND WENT TO SCHOOL WITH JIM......HE WAS KILLED IN A CAR CRASH UP BY CAMAS.........FREDA JUST DIED OF CANCER.....EVEN THOUGH I DON'T KNOW THEM ALL WELL......I LOVE THEM AS THEY ARE "YEOMANS"........AND HOPE SOME DAY I CAN BE AT ONE OF THEIR FAMILY REUNIONS.

MORE WONDERING

SO THIS SWEET BOY HARDLY LOOKS LIKE HE HAS A BROKEN HEART!

HIS WIFE OF A YEAR AND A HALF STEPPED OUT ON HIM AND FINALLY JUST WALKED OUT......PRETTY TOUGH FEW WEEKS.......PRAYED IN THE TEMPLE AT RICHIES WEDDING HE WOULD FIND THE RIGHT GIRL AGAIN SOME TIME.....THREE DAYS LATER HIS GOOD FRIEND HOOKED HIM UP WITH HIS COUSIN......SO WHO KNOWS WHAT IS AHEAD FOR AUBERY AND ALEX......GRANDMOTHER'S JUST ASK THEY ARE ALL HAPPY.,,,,,,,AND THIS TIME TAKE IT SLOW!  THESE MISSIONARIES THAT THINK THEY HAVE TO GET MARRIED THE DAY THEY GET HOME FROM A MISSION HAVE GOT IT ALL WRONG IN GRAMMIES VIEW.

WONDERING......

CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHAT RICHIE'S NEW WIFE ASHLEY IS LIKE....WILL I EVER GET TO KNOW HER OR THEIR CHILDREN????? BEFORE I DIE?

HERE SHE IS WITH ANNIE MOO SAYING HOW HAPPY SHE IS TO HAVE A SISTER NOW......THEY ARE CUTE TOGETHER......I SPENT SO MANY HOURS LOVING ANDREA AND RICHIE AS THEY GREW UP.....NICE TO SEE THEY HAVE GROWN INTO SUCH GREAT PEOPLE.

WOMEN.......

WOMEN WAS MADE FROM THE RIB OF  MAN......NOT FROM HIS HEAD TO TOP HIM NOR HIS FOOT TO BE STEPPED ON BY HIM.......BUT FROM HIS SIDE TO BE EQUAL TO HIM........ UNDER HIS ARM TO BE PROTECTED BY HIM.......... AND NEAR HIS HEART TO BE LOVED BY HIM........SO  PROUD TO BE A WOMAN AND LOOK BACK ON WHERE I HAVE COME FROM TO THIS POINT IN MY LIFE......I HAVE ALWAYS TRIED TO BE "THE BEST OF THE BEST"......IN ALL I EVER DID.....SURE I MADE MISTAKES......I AM HUMAN, BUT I WAS ALWAYS TRYING TO DO MY BEST......AND WILL KEEP TRYING TO THE END OF MY LIFE.

THE XFINITY MAN SPENT THE MORNING WITH ME.....HOPE HE GOT THINGS WORKED OUT......THEN PATTY CAME FOR COFFEE.....SO DIDN'T GET MUCH DONE TODAY....O.H WELL.....IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL SUNNY FALL DAY AND SO NICE FOR NOVEMBER 2.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

     AS USUAL......... A DAY LATE ON EVERYTHING.......HOPE EVERY ONE HAD A HAPPY HALLOWEEN.......I GOT A NICE BIG BOWL OF CANDY AND GAVE OUT ONE........ONE BEFORE 7:30.....SO TURNED OFF THE PORCH LIGHTS AND WATCHED MY FAVORITE SHOW "DANCING WITH THE STARS".....BAG HALLOWEEN.  THE CHRISTENSONS CAME IN ABOUT ELEVEN FROM NEW YORK AND WENT RIGHT TO BED......I HAD ALREADY BEEN ASLEEP WAITING FOR THEM.  ALWAYS FUN TO HAVE FAMILY.   THEY WERE OFF EARLY LIKE KEN SO I DID A COUPLE OF CHORES AND HAGGLED WITH XFINITY......THINK I NEED A NEW MOTOME.....COMING BACK TOMORROW......NOTHING IS WORKING RIGHT!
       GATHERED UP THE HALLOWEEN STUFF AND WOULD LIKE TO PUT UP MY CHRISTMAS TREE NOW......EVERYONE IN TOWN HAS THEIR CHRISTMAS STUFF OUT AND UP......SO WHY NOT?  I AM BAGGING THANKSGIVING THIS YEAR ANYWAY......THE CHRISTENSONS ARE HEADING FOR ST THOMAS AND THE PANNIERS LEAVE FOR ARGENTINA THE NEXT DAY......SO DON'T WANT TO DO A LOT OF ENTERTAINING......LAST YEAR I ATE AT MY NEIGHBORS......I WILL BE HAPPY WITH A HAPPY MEAL FROM MCDONALDS WITH EXTRA  FRY SAUCE!!!!!
        "WAITING FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY........IS THE BEST WAY TO BE SAD"

WEEKEND WITH AL.......

     
           MY ALEX HAS GROWN UP......HERE HE IS 19......LEAVING ON A MISSION.....ALMOST 4 YEARS LATER HE HAS SERVED HIS TWO YEAR MISSION IN ARGENTINA, GOTTEN MARRIED AND DIVORCED AND STILL MY SWEET GUY WHO CALLED TO SEE IF HE COULD SPEND THE WEEKEND WITH ME.......ALONG WITH LANCE LABRUM....AND TWO DOGS.
         HIS PARENTS AND TWO BROTHERS LEFT EARLY THIS MORNING FOR NYC.....SO KEN CAN SWIM WITH THE SHARKS!.....HE CHOSE ME......I HAVE SO MANY FUN MEMORIES WITH THIS CUTE BOY AND HOPE TO CONTINUE A FEW MORE YEARS.
       SPENT THE MORNING WITH PATTY CATCHING UP ON HER TRIP TO CA FOR HER SISTERS DEATH,......SO HARD TO LOSE A SISTER.
58 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS AND 12 TILL WE ELECT A NEW PRESIDENT.....I AM KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED FOR TRUMP......LOOKING FORWARD TO A FUN WEEKEND AND HALLOWEEN ON MONDAY.
         "IF YOU THINK NOBODY CARES IF YOU ARE ALIVE.....TRY MISSING A COUPLE OF CAR PAYMENTS?"

NEXT LEVEL......

       I THINK I AM READY FOR THE NEXT LEVEL......SECOND CHILDHOOD!   YOU DON'T HAVE TO SETTLE FOR SO-SO OR JUST ALL RIGHT, AND THINGS CAN BE EVEN BETTER THAN GOOD.......THEY CAN BE GREAT!  I GUESS THE SECRET TO LIVING MORE FULLY IS TO REALIZE THAT YOU ARE A HUNDRED PERCENT WORTHY TO ALL THINGS......JUST START BELIEVING HAPPINESS IS YOUR DESTINY........
        ANOTHER BUSY WEEK SLIDING BY AND ONLY 60 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS......PAM TOOK ME TO GET MY EYES DIALATED YESTERDAY AND WE HAD A FUN LUNCH AT THE OLIVE GARDEN.......THEN KEN, BRAYDEN AND I WENT TO SEE JACK REICHER.....VERY INTENSE MOVIE.  TODAY I AM OFF TO PLAY BRIDGE.  STILL HAVING BEAUTIFUL WEATHER.....KEN AND I DID STACK AND COVER THE PATIO FURNITURE THOUGH....GETTING READY FOR THE SNOW.

FUN DAY......

     
       IT IS ALWAYS SO NICE TO A GRANDMOTHER WHEN ONE OF THEIR GRANDCHILDREN CALL AND SAY....."WANT TO GO TO LUNCH WITH ME"....OR "WANT TO GO TO A MOVIE WITH ME?" OR EVEN JUST COME BY TO VISIT A FEW MINUTES....YESTERDAY I WAS OFF WITH MY OLDEST GRANDCHILD....TIFFANY AND MY DARLING GREAT-GRANDSON AARON.  THE GUYS IN HER FAMILY WERE OFF DEER HUNTING AND MOM WAS OFF TO ST GEORGE FOR A GIRL WEEKEND......SO GRAMMIE WAS HONORED.
     OFF TO LUNCH WHERE ARRON FILLED UP ON MAC-AND-CHEESE, FRENCH FRIES AND TOPPED IT OFF WITH HIS  FIRST ICE CREAM CONE.....HE IS TRYING TO SAY EVERY THING AND SO FUN TO HAVE LUNCH WITH.   THEN OFF TO "AT HOME"....ONE OF MY FAVORITE STORES WITH EVERY THING IN IT.....I BOUGHT A NEW CHRISTMAS TREE AND A TOY BASKET FOR AARONS BIRTHDAY.
            CHURCH TODAY AND ONE MORE WEEK IN OCTOBER......SOON HAPPY HALLOWEEN.......

AM I GOOD ENOUGH? WILL I MAKE IT?

OFF TO CHURCH THIS MORNING.....KIDS AT THE CABIN.    I ALWAYS COME HOME FROM CHURCH WITH SOME QUESTIONS......TODAY I FOUND A WONDERFUL ARTICAL I MUST KEEP AT HAND SO I CAN READ IT ......PROBABLY REGULARLY.....IT WAS AT THIS YEARS CONFERENCE BY ELDER J DEVIN CORNISH.......

"MY BELOVED BROTHERS AND SISTERS, WE MUST STOP COMPARING OURSELVES TO OTHERS....WE TORTURE OURSELVES NEEDLESSLY BY COMPETING AND COMPARING.   WE FALSELY JUDGE OUR SELF-WORTH BY THE THINGS WE DO OR DON'T HAVE AND BY OPINIONS OF OTHERS.....IF WE MUST COMPARE, LET US COMPARE  HOW WE WERE IN THE PAST TO HOW WE ARE TODAY-----AND EVEN HOW WE WANT TO BE IN THE FUTURE.....THE ONLY OPINION OF US THAT MATTERS IS WHAT OUR HEAVENLY FATHER THINKS OF US...

THE ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS "AM I GOOD ENOUGH.?" AND "WILL I MAKE IT?" ARE YES!  YES YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH AND YES YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT AS LONG AS YOU KEEP REPENTING AND DO NOT RATIONALIZE OR REBEL......IT ENDS WITH....OUR HEAVENLY FATHER INTENDS FOR US TO MAKE IT......THAT IS HIS WORK AND HIS GLORY"

THESE CAN BE COMFORTING WORDS ON THE DAYS YOU ARE DOWN. AND WHO HASN'T OR DOESN'T COMPARE YOURSELF TO ......TO MANY PEOPLE IN AND AROUND US.......FAMILY MEMBERS....CHURCH MEMBERS.....FRIENDS?.......I AM GUILTY BUT WILL BE THINKING ABOUT IT IN A DIFFERENT WAY.

KNOTS OR NOTS..........

YOU KNOW .....SOMETIMES IT REALLY IS HARD TO ACT YOUR AGE.   WHEN I PUT ON ONE OF MY CRAZY HATS BECAUSE OF A BAD HAIR DAY......I THINK.....SHOULD SOMEONE 84 AND A HALF.....WEAR THIS??????  BUT I DO ANYWAY......I SAW THIS ABOUT KNOTS....OR NOTS.......LIKE IT.

DEAR GOD

PLEASE UNTIE THE KNOTS THAT ARE

 IN MY MIND, MY HEART AND MY LIFE.......

REMOVE THE HAVE-NOTS,  THE CAN-NOTS AND THE DO-NOTS THAT I HAVE IN MY MIND.....

ERASE THE WILL-NOTS, THE MAY-NOTS, MIGHT-NOTS THAT MAY FIND A HOME IN MY HEART....

RELEASE ME FROM THE COULD-NOTS AND WOULD-NOTS AND SHOULD-NOTS THAT OBSTRUCT MY LIFE...

AND MOST OF ALL DEAR GOD I ASK THAT YOU REMOVE FROM MY MIND, MY HEART AND MY LIFE ALL THE AM-NOTS THAT I HAVE ALLOWED TO HOLD ME BACK...... ESPECIALLY THE THOUGHT THAT I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH!

AMEN

REMEMBER ......YOU ARE ALWAYS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING YOU WANT IN YOUR LIFE.......

!

WONDER WOMAN.......

YES, I DO SEVERAL THINGS THAT MAKE ME WONDER.......LIKE PUT OFF HOUSE CLEANING TO KNIT OR READ.......A HUNDRED YEARS FROM NOW WHO WILL KNOW WHETHER I CLEANED THE BATHROOM OR NOT TODAY......AND THE PEOPLE THAT COME SEE ME DON'T CARE.....WHY SHOULD I?  KNITTING IS A LOT MORE FUN THAN CLEANING THE TOILET!!!!!  I LIKE SWEET PEAS ATTITUDE.

SHERRIE DROPPED BY WITH MY DINNER AND TO PICK UP KEN FOR THE WEEKEND......HE WILL BE WITH HIS FAMILY AT THE CABIN ALL WEEKEND.....AND THAT IS GOOD.  WE BOTH GET A BREAK......I GUESS ALEX MET HIS FRIEND'.....S COUSINS LAST WEEK AND THEY HAVE BECOME FRIENDS.....I AM SO GLAD HE IS MOVING ON.....SHE WAS GOING TO BE AT THE CABIN WITH SHERRIE THIS WEEKEND SO THEY GET TO MEET HER.......SHE LIVES IN WYOMING NOW.

LESLIE COULD NOT FIGURE OUT WHY ALL THE TRAFFIC GOING HOME YESTERDAY.......WELL IT IS UEA WEEKEND IN SALT LAKE AND EVERYONE WAS LEAVING TOWN THE SAME TIME THEY WERE!!!!  A GOOD TIME TO TAKE THE KIDS AND LEAVE TOWN FOR SOUTHERN UTAH FOR FOUR DAYS.

ROB BROUGHT BREE OVER THIS MORNING FOR THE WEEKEND.......PAM IS IN ST GEORGE AND HE WAS OFF TO DEER HUNT IN SCHOFIELD........

ANOTHER WEEKEND ALREADY.......

HAPPY 15TH SCOTTIE........

         
               HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SCOTT CALVIN COOK......MY YOUNGEST OF NINE GRANDCHILDREN.....JUST TURNED 15 YESTERDAY.....HE WAS SO FUN AT THIS AGE AND I ENJOYED ALL HIS BALL GAMES......BUT THOSE DAYS ARE OVER.....HE IS NOW TALL......AND GORGEOUS AND HAS A GREAT PERSONALITY......WHEN HE THANKED ME FOR THE BIRTHDAY CARD AND MONEY HE SAID I LOVE YOU.....MADE MY HEART SWELL.....I MISS HIM IN MY LIFE.  MAYBE NEXT YEAR WHEN HE STARTS DRIVING HE CAN COME SEE ME NOW AND THEN......HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCOTTIE!

SISTER IN TOWN.........

FINALLY FOUND OUT WHERE I BELONG.....A DELUSIONAL OLD FART!!!!!

SO I AM LOSING MY HEARING, MY SIGHT, MY HAIR AND MY BALANCE AND I AM OVER WEIGHT.......I JUST REMEMBER HOW I USE TO BE AND IN MY MIND STAY THERE.

      IT WAS SO FUN HAVING MY SISTER, HER DAUGHTER AND HUSBAND AND LITTLE GIRL FOR THE NIGHT....MY FRIEND PATTY CAME BY TODAY TO TELL ME HER ONLY SISTER DIED THIS MORNING.......HAVING LOST TWO SISTERS I KNOW HOW SAD IT CAN BE AND I CHERISH MY LITTLE SISTER......SO ENJOY HER.

KEN OFF TO DINNER WITH HIS OTHER GRANDMA SO IT IS COKE AND POTATO CHIPS FOR ME TONIGHT.   LAST NIGHT DONALD AND HILERY HAD THEIR LAST DEBATE......NOW IF THE NEXT THREE WEEKS WILL PASS AND THIS ELECTIONS STUFF WITH ALL IT'S LIES WILL END.....I HAVE GIVEN IT  TO THE UNIVERSE TO SETTLE.

SEE A FOR SALE SIGN ON MY NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS HOUSE.....KIM AND KELLY, GUESS THEY DON'T GO FOR THIS CONDO STUFF AND WANT A PRIVATE HOME.

TIFF CALLED AND AND WANTED TO DO SOMETHING SATURDAY WITH ME AS SCOTT IS OFF DEER HUNTING WITH ROB AND PAM WENT ON A GIRL'S WEEKEND TO ST GEORGE WITH HER NEIGHBOR......SO OFF TO LUNCH AND SHOPPING AT NEW STORE "AT HOME"......SHE HAS NOT BEEN THERE......ALWAYS LOVE BEING ASKED TO DO SOMETHING WITH A GRANDCHILD.....THEY STILL LOVE AND ENJOY MY COMPANY.  ALMOST THE END OF ANOTHER MONTH.........

MISH-M0SH....OF THE DAY..

      I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS PICTURE.......SOME DAYS.....SOME WEEKS....... LEAVE YOU FEELING YOU LOOK JUST LIKE THIS.....SO ALL YOU CAN DO IS HOLD YOUR HEAD UP HIGH AND TAKE ONE MORE STEP FORWARD.......I WONDER IF HILLARY OR TRUMP EVERY KNOW THEY LOOK LIKE THIS AT THE END OF THE WEEK???
     I WAS JUST THINKING AS I WASTE MY BREATH COMPLAINING ABOUT THINGS.......SOMEONE OUT THERE IS BREATHING THEIR LAST .....SO I MUST APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE AND BE THANKFUL AND STOP COMPLAINING.....
    I KNOW THAT GOD KNOWS WHAT OUR MINDS CAN HANDLE.....WHAT OUR ARMS CAN CARRY.... AND WHAT OUR HEARTS ARE READY FOR.....TRUST HIS PLAN AND HIS TIMING.....
       THE LEE FAMILY HAS REALLY BEEN STRESSING ME OUT......PERHAPS YOU KNOW THEM.....;   EMOTIONALLY LEE, MENTAL LEE, PHYSICAL LEE AND LET'S NOT FORGET FINANCIAL LEE!
     I CONSIDER BROCCOLI AS A DELIVERY SYSTEM FOR RANCH DRESSING??  WENT TO THE POST OFFICE, THEN DROPPED OFF THREE BAGS OF CLOTHES TO GOOD WILL AND DID SOME GROCERY SHOPPING......OH AND DID TWO BATCHES OF LAUNDRY,,,LOOKING FORWARD TO DANCING WITH THE STARS TONIGHT.......I AM POOPED!

IT'S A GOOD DAY........

DON'T YOU JUST LOVE THEIR OUTFITS......I AM SURE HILLERY WILL BE WEARING THIS WHEN SHE BECOMES RESIDENT AND WILL FIT RIGHT WITH THE OTHER TWO HATED PEOPLE.......BUT I HAVE TURNED POLITICS OVER TO THE UNIVERSE TO SETTLE SO I WILL MOVE ON TO SOMETHING MORE POSITIVE.

IT HAS BEEN A QUIET WEEKEND WITH NO BOYS.......AND I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT MY FAMILY ALOT....TOO BAD MOMS AND DADS AREN'T FOREVER!

MANY MEMORIES AND LESSONS LEARNED AND I AM SURE I HAVE PASSED MUCH DOWN TO MY THREE GIRLS.....LIKE:

My MOTHER TAUGHT ME TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE......"IF YOU ARE GOING TO KILL EACH OTHER, DO IT OUTSIDE....I JUST FINISHED CLEANING!"

MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME RELIGION....."YOU BETTER PRAY THAT WILL COME OUT OF THE CARPET!"

MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME ABOUT TIME......."IF YOU DON'T STRAIGHTEN UP I'M GOING TO KNOCK YOU INTO THE MIDDLE OF NEXT WEEK."

MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME FORESIGHT......"BE SURE TO WEAR CLEAN UNDERWEAR IN CASE YOU ARE IN AN ACCIDENT!"

MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME IRONY......"KEEP CRYING AN I'LL GIVE YOU SOMETHING TO CRY ABOUT?"

MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME CONTORTRUISM......"WILL YOU LOOK AT THAT DIRT ON THE BACK OF YOUR NECK?"SO

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE LEARNED THESE LESSONS FROM SOMEONE WHO REALLY LOVED ME AND CARED.