Wow.....what a week.....It is very hard to move.....anywhere....anytime....especially when you are 82 and have live in a fun place for 27 years......not that I am not excited about my new place.....it's just that I don't know when I have ever been so tired!!!!! So many decisions.....and that good feeling of letting go of so much that you use to think you could not live without!....... We should never get to that point in life.....but we do.......I know....I know they are just THINGS......and have nothing to do with you or your happiness. Real happiness is when you have been just sitting there an all of a sudden you feel like doing something nice for someone you care for? That 's God talking to you through the Holy Spirit.
Have you ever been thinking about somebody that you haven't seen in a long time and then next thing you know you see him or receive a phone call from them? That's GOD....... there is no such thing as coincidence.
Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it was going to get better, how the hurting would stop, how the pain would ease, but now you look back on it.......That's GOD passing us through tribulation to see a brighter day.
I know when I move out after Thanksgiving it may be a long three months ....but GOD will be there..... All I can say and think right now is.....THIS TOO WILL PASS!
A good month....not to be a turkey!!!! I say take a chance on JOY......No matter what our daily struggles or the morning news might lead you to think ......you need to know the potential for happiness is all around you.....You know those moments when nothing special is happening, maybe you wake up early one morning to the sound of the birds chirping in the tree outside your bedroom window or the smell of last night's rain storm from your open window and you smile for no reason! You feel different and you don't know why.......the plotline of my life dissolves and I am just there where I am, without the responsibility of playing the lead in my own fascinating story. The world is so full of hurt and pain you need to stop and be happy where you are in your life....Today was frantic.....Kar and Rich came by to help out with the packing.....so it began....many boxes, thrown away outdated food.....and lots of junk (treasures).....go....go...go.......Alex came in from Vernal and is excited about getting married and set up a new apartment next month and I was happy to have him haul off some of my treasures......table and chairs, desk, bookcase, lamps etc. then went I thought we were done we were off to Macy's to look for a new dress for me for the wedding....Karrie had a coupon and with my card to found a nice one and saved forty dollars......I am tired tonight1
It seems as I was growing up I felt life was meant to be fairly easy.....work hard, don't break any laws and be honest.......maybe that is just a child's view of life......because after 82 years of life I feel that life can be hard.....frustrating......disappointing etc.......hard! Sometimes you think your happy....sometimes not.....and with every up and down I guess it makes you stronger.....just proves to yourself....you can do it. So you keep going just one more day.....just one more day....... just....well you know what I mean.
I look at this picture and decide......it is something to ponder.....there seems to be so many things in life to think about.....I have been struggling with many lately. Ponder about some of these......1. The nicest thing about the future is that is always starts tomorrow. Yea that seems about right. 2. Seat belts are not as confining as wheelchairs......better believe it! 3. How come it takes so little time for a child who is afraid of the dark to become a teenager who wants to stay out all night? No parent will ever understand this....no matter how much you ponder this! 4. I've reached the age were the happy hour is a nap!!!!!! 5. Do you realize that in about 40 years, we'll have thousands of OLD LADIES running around with tattoos? (I have thought of that...yuck....of course I won't be here to see it!).....6. Money can't buy happiness---but somehow it's more comfortable to cry in a Corvette than in a Volks Wagon.......7. After a certain age, if you don't wake up aching in every joint, you are probably dead......
Well.....spent the weekend having a pity party and my three darling daughters bailed me out......Decided to bag Christmas this year and move out the end of November so David Dee can start remodeling.....so I am moving in with the Panniers for December......If it takes him the month of December, I can put the house up for sale January 1st and hopefully sell in the next two months to have the money for the first part of March for the new place?????Anyway.....that is the new plan. The three girls came over and the past two days with boxes, bubble wrap, news paper etc packed up practically my whole house and moved it down to Robs business to store.....They took what they wanted and loaded a lot for the DI.......We all end up being pack rats through the years......
Well, I am trying to decide that old age is a gift......One part of me says ...yea, it's ok and another part of me says.....it's pretty shitty!!! Just when I think I have some part of this move settled....then I get a lecture about moving out NOW and getting the house ready to put up for sale.....My reasoning is no one....INCLUDING ME......wants to move during the holidays and you put the house up in December ......it sets there four of five weeks and people wonder why it is not sold if it is such a hot deal...and the Panniers say....move in and have Christmas there.....If I have to move out before Christmas.....it is all over for me.......I am done!...... They think it will take too long to get the house ready to sell.......I see their point and for some reason......no one sees mine!!! At times I wonder if this move was really worth my peace of mine.
Yes......I believe this but that doesn't make it any easier....I am so excited ....Karrie texted me they were "digging my hole today!".....The good word was after they dug the hole it would take four months to finish a house.......which means Nov....Dec.....Jan.....Feb.....Sometime in March I can move in! YES.......January here to remodel and February to sell my house! Well, anyway that is my plan...Jose and Salvador cleaned the back yard for me today.....which really makes me happy. Pam and I went to a baby shower for Tiff today at the Hortins......she is due in two months and got so many darling outfits, diapers, blankets, shoes, socks, etc. She is starting to get excited.
